Bipolar Disorder Support Group
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so yesterday - i know this isnt the exact forum to post, but why the hell not because i like this community i feel safe here and i want to share my experience with somebody !!!
so yesterday me and a group of friends took this 2-meo-dalt a tryptomine pschedelic drug that is quite new and quite experimental. for my first trip experience apparently this is quite a weird one to go with but it was absolutely amazing.
we took it at 4.30pm in wentwood ( a forest near us ) and we had a hut and a little sitting down area where we put a blanket and some music and we made a fire. at about 5pm jess started to come up and stood up, then it hit her and she started twsiting out (in a good way) then as though like contagiously spread through the air we all became tripped after her, me and my friend mia were last to come up but it was great when we did.
i stood in this open space looking at the sky focusing on things i'd never thought to look at before, that twig, so beautiful and red ? and then it felt like time had moved so far and that i'd been staring for long. my hands feel detatched from my body like they werent mine i felt like i'd fallen down a hole and everyone was so far away. but so close. the birds twitered in my ear and it felt like they were right inside my head, only it felt empty and peaceful in my head, but rushed and chaotic at the same time.
i sat down for a while, when the others went off to vomit because they felt ill (common side affect) i didnt' however. i stared at the fire, seeing all the twisty yellow and orange and black flames licking around eachother holding hands with their firey tongues flicking at me like snakes, it was odd but i didnt feel disturbed only interested.
they came back laughing, we all huddled together laughing about the thoughts in our head and i seemed to be on a telepathic level with everyone, we didnt even need to speak it's as though we all shared the same train of disjointed thoughts.
every thought span into the next and every meaning of that last thought seemed to come into reality. i bit into some chocolate and it felt like mud in my mouth so i spat it out.
it started to go darker and colder but it still felt like morning inside my mind and i felt like i'd opened up a door to a new life outside of this ordinary existance, seeing things that only the trained eye could ever think to see. i went for a pee behind the tree. and saw loads of ants marching up the bark, i looked at them for ages fascinated, then i was stood in their nest.
the pee was strange. i saw the steam coming off and floating into the air, i saw every particle of my pee spraying onto the leaves and grass around, it was madness.
theres more but i cant even begin to explain the wonders of yesterdays adventure....best part is though :) i've got more to see and more to feel and more to enlighten myself with.
i just feel at peace :)
(SORRY ITS SO LONG) xxxxx
so yesterday me and a group of friends took this 2-meo-dalt a tryptomine pschedelic drug that is quite new and quite experimental. for my first trip experience apparently this is quite a weird one to go with but it was absolutely amazing.
we took it at 4.30pm in wentwood ( a forest near us ) and we had a hut and a little sitting down area where we put a blanket and some music and we made a fire. at about 5pm jess started to come up and stood up, then it hit her and she started twsiting out (in a good way) then as though like contagiously spread through the air we all became tripped after her, me and my friend mia were last to come up but it was great when we did.
i stood in this open space looking at the sky focusing on things i'd never thought to look at before, that twig, so beautiful and red ? and then it felt like time had moved so far and that i'd been staring for long. my hands feel detatched from my body like they werent mine i felt like i'd fallen down a hole and everyone was so far away. but so close. the birds twitered in my ear and it felt like they were right inside my head, only it felt empty and peaceful in my head, but rushed and chaotic at the same time.
i sat down for a while, when the others went off to vomit because they felt ill (common side affect) i didnt' however. i stared at the fire, seeing all the twisty yellow and orange and black flames licking around eachother holding hands with their firey tongues flicking at me like snakes, it was odd but i didnt feel disturbed only interested.
they came back laughing, we all huddled together laughing about the thoughts in our head and i seemed to be on a telepathic level with everyone, we didnt even need to speak it's as though we all shared the same train of disjointed thoughts.
every thought span into the next and every meaning of that last thought seemed to come into reality. i bit into some chocolate and it felt like mud in my mouth so i spat it out.
it started to go darker and colder but it still felt like morning inside my mind and i felt like i'd opened up a door to a new life outside of this ordinary existance, seeing things that only the trained eye could ever think to see. i went for a pee behind the tree. and saw loads of ants marching up the bark, i looked at them for ages fascinated, then i was stood in their nest.
the pee was strange. i saw the steam coming off and floating into the air, i saw every particle of my pee spraying onto the leaves and grass around, it was madness.
theres more but i cant even begin to explain the wonders of yesterdays adventure....best part is though :) i've got more to see and more to feel and more to enlighten myself with.
i just feel at peace :)
(SORRY ITS SO LONG) xxxxx
Unless you guys like to rant about your druggie days.
what am i hurting ?
stop reading if you dislike ??
i think i can pretty much post about anything. EVERYONE else does yeah.
music, whats that got to do with bipolar ?
vegetarianism ... whats that got to do with bipolar?
poetry contests ? ?
GO hate on their posts too :) :) :) :) thanks babe
drug addiction can be bi polar related. Many beepers have drug history. I think it's important to discuss drug use and it's long term consequences.
Not being hateful mush but since you asked you could be hurting your self. You are playing with chemicals in your brain. Legal or not legal has nothing to do with it. It is what it is.
Also just be aware this could be a trigger for some one else so even if it was unintentional some one could get hurt by reading this. Some one who is maybe struggling with drug use.
I'm fine I am strong in my choice to be clean but having been on the other side I know what it's like to struggle with an addiction.
What kind of asshole would I be if I didn't at least warn you? I know you aren't stupid but I was arrogant when I started using drugs. I didn't respect them for what they really were.
I won't nag you again after this. You are a big girl and can make choices for your self. No one can make that choice for you. But a friend will tell you the truth not what you only want to hear.
i dont however appreciate people just posting negative shit on here without even anything constructive when all they had to do was click back off and continue on with their day.
i have a friend who did acid and has never come back from his "trip"...very sad to see.
be careful mush...(((((hugs))))
As for cigarettes, they should be banned, and after alcoholism, jumped on the wagon and happy to never have fallen off in 32 years.
Young and foolish is my opinion. Self medicating with drugs doesn't work. That is what addictions are about in bipolar. Trying to control the disease with uncontrolled substances, or liquor. Been there, done that. It never worked, got me in horrendous trouble, and made me more and more depressed. Oh yes, and a few psychotic breaks somewhere in there.
It is not about laws, it is about getting you doing stuff which will only bring you down. It felt good, sure. In the 60's, we used to say, "if it feels good, do it." How stupid could we have been? It was a media saying, and it was wrong.
Find your own identity, explore nature straight and you will find a beautiful world. As for peace on drugs - an artificial peace does not last. That is what you experienced. A counterfeit and I promise you it will beg you for more, and get worse and worse.
I am so glad you posted. It helps me remember why I got out of all that, and how I am so much happier, peaceful and fulfilled without drugs.
the say no to drugs chant is going round and round. how very effective.
i
am.
not. going to turn
into some skanky drug addict because i took a mild pschedelic drug that happened to be really nice am i ? ? no because i have more self-control and more respect for myself than that.
i did this because i wanted and i knew what i was doing.
these lectures are putting a brick wall up man all i can say is
let me be a fool.
I remember reading life magazine when I was 10 about LSD and deciding I wanted to do it. It was pure propaganda. That is what this post is about. Trying to convince people who are mentally ill that the answer lies in taking psychedelic drugs.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WIsou0IRIQU
propaganda indeed i totally made this post to persuade all of these mentally ill people into taking drugs wow. im such a bad person
i merely explained my experience because i have nowhere else to talk about it.
if you can point out somewhere along the line at which point i SUGGESTED PEOPLE TAKE THIS. then your point would be valid however.
if you've interpretted my post in that way then that is your problem darling.
i'd love to put you on ignore but i dont really think that would do much.
You did not warn anyone of triggers.
You were selfish enough to post this for what??? To advocate drug use???
We have enough problems enough as it is, don't you know this? How old are you???
Isn't there a teenager BP board?
how is explaining a POSITIVE experience triggering ?
i think the title clearly would explain what my post is about if you didnt want to read it then you shouldnt have
and anyone who KNOWS they get triggered by drug related issues wouldn't click on a thread called "PSYCHEDELIC DRUG EXPERIENCE" unless of course they enjoy being triggered and enjoy moaning about it and enjoy making a drama for no reason.
my age is irrelevent. VERY irrlevent infact. bringing it up is just ageist and is completely immature of you. what is your problem like what have i done i just dont understand at all HAHAHA.
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