I'm not sure I exist right now....

oh...so much hanna, and yah, i know what you mean about the haze thing, and also, when i come down from an episode, or i just kind of take time to breath and look back..it all seems like a hazy dream too...

sometimes it feels kind of scary you know? i just wish we could be ok....but...

we have to just try to think more that we are, because when i start focusing on me not being "right" and even get like paranoid of it or obsessed, then it can really take me down fast, so, i'm trying to replace these thoughts when i have them with more positive one's and it is really working hana:) i've just been trying to do this for the last month or 2...as soon as a thought comes along, like , "i feel like i'm going to never be normal, ",..or "i've never been normal and i never will" ect..i just replace it with..."everything's gona be3 allright" you know..and i just get out of the thoughts that start scaring me and bringing me down or getting me more paranoid

peace for you hanna..love, maggie

I know that feeling, Hanna. Like I'm here and then I'm not, like I'm in another scenario entirely. I'd just sit and chill, maybe take a bath and try to meditate, call a friend and find out how they are doing. I find coming here helps so that I can see that I'm not alone. And you are not alone.

Keep talking,
Kate

No, I am fairly stable.....when things are not right, I usually know it.....one good earmarker that my pdoc uses as a guide is rapid speech or the blues.....when I get that way it's time to adjust the meds before it gets worse. Hope you get to feeling better soon Hanna

Princess

I'm not thinking like that really. I just feel like my brain is in a different place. I feel like I'm going to either get all manic or crash, and I don't know which one.

The haze is fogging up my glasses and I can't see which way to go.

Lol, for myself its called Bipolar disorder with medication... It is pretty much constant...

Good call TG. I feel different today than usual though. I don't know whether to laugh or cry.

Standing on that stage right now...it's scary

Well, I feel out of phase today. I know for sure my friend dying and the memorial service yesterday (which I was unable to attend) has someting to do with it though. I think I'll just need a few days to get sorted out. At least I hope that is all it is. I've been on the depressive side for weeks. Only time will tell I guess. I don't like this out of phase stuff one bit.

I feel that way now. No sleep for over a week will do it to ya.....=)

I take showers and klonopin ans stay out of public places and off the phone.

Whenever I've felt in that Haze like state I've been on the phone to my doc in a hurry for some med rearranging fast. I'm a nurse and can't function if that is going on. If you feel like an episode might be coming on good chance it might. Might be a good time to call the doc...

Hope you're feeling "right" real soon.....

I've called the pdoc, waiting for her to call me back. It's taking a depressive turn. Now I can't stop crying.

sorry you are crying... I hate that it happens to me like that sometimes...

Think of the word, "funktastic" and how many things you can truly apply that word too...

You might start laughing a little...

I, personally, like the word "ginormous". It just recently became a real word in the dictionary. I joined a weight loss support group and named myself "Ginormous Ginger".

That's a "funktastic" thing. Thanks everyone. Still in a haze, still waiting for the pdoc to call, still feel like something is coming on, but I'm glad you've all been here for me. Thanks.