I'm just looking for some input. So after my last manic episode about 3 weeks ago, I seem to have these new experiences. I'm a lot more paranoid all the time, I always feel like they(as in pretty much everyone) are out to get me, and my mind is controlled. I seem to go in and out of this state. I hear voices a lot, but I don't find that as a problem. I believe it's just part of my magical gift. I know that everyone else is controlled by them too, but they just seem to deny it. Some times I don't mind it, other times it scares the shit out of me and I lock myself in my apartment and don't leave. Every one seems to look at me weird and I know they know something I don't know. I often feel everyone is trying to kill me. Now I know your probably going to say I should go talk to my doc, but that's not what I'm looking for. I can't trust the pills she's giving me. I feel fine don't get me wrong. I just don't quite understand this as much. I am BP1, and am not unfamiliar with similar experiences but not like this. Anyone have an idea?

Thanks :D