Sounds like psychosis .. Are you on Anti psychotic's sweetie?
I would see your psychiatrist.. This should be able to be taken care of fairly quickly with the right meds..
I don't think this is a magical gift Dalton.. I think these are symptoms that are very difficult to bear however there is good help to be had..
Great big hug for you..x

Also if any of you have any good recommendations for a person in college trying to deal with this and life in general and balance school at the same time? How do you do it?

I am not as a matter of fact. As I've said I can't really trust what my dr gives me. And I've tried a lot of meds with no luck :/ They all end up leaving me just wanting to die or sick. I do appreciate your input. I don't believe it's psychosis. I just think it's life in general. Idk. Thanks for the hug :D

Psychosis


Classic....Not knowing you are in the midst of an episode , and denying it

Take care

Everyone's mind is controlled if you watch television your mind is being controlled. The only way to be free and think freely without people slapping shit into your brain is to move off the grid. I have had similar symptoms while in psychosis As far as balancing your life while in college there are plenty of people that are bipolar that can do it, although I have tried and I am not one of them. I am sure you will get help through daily strength. Just stay on and maybe someone will answer you better than I did.

19 is a tough age to b. as judge judy says "your brain aint done cooking yet". i was a mess at 19yrs. alcohol, heroin, etc. im 57 and and i think im getting closer to my brain being done cooking. u smoking a lot of pot. does that contribute to your paranoia? other drugs? your profile says iowa? college aint easy, growing up aint easy. life aint easy. there is a lot i know now that i didnt know then. i think talking about our problems helps a great deal. if there is some kind of chemical imbalance its nothing to ignore. if u dont like your doc, find a different doc. just keep in mind that just because u dont like someone doesnt mean u cant learn from them. life is all about figuring out what makes us happy

Bipolar changes - from many phases of depression, mania, mixed, delusions, anxiety, paranoid - meds, are to treat each person symptoms.. no "Bipolar" drug. But no drugs when your bipolar, with mania and paranoia?

Symptoms always change and are evolving - not believing in something, not making it so???? LOL didn't see that class at my school : )

Safe place here - whether you believe or not, many of us have been there or understand...

Dalton you've written that you think everyone is out to get you.. You're paranoid... It scares the shit out of you and you lock yourself in the apt and don't leave... at the end of your post you write you feel fine don't get me wrong...
it doesn't sound like you feel fine.. It sounds like you're suffering...
I'll put up a link to psychotic symptoms... if you know you're BP 1 then you know that psychosis is one of the symptoms..
I agree that if you don't trust your doc I would find another one..
The only time I have ever felt the fear you're describing was when I was in a mixed state..
There is a teen site on here

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Psychosis#Signs_and_symptoms

you have a remarkable level of insight for someone not on meds experiencing the sorts of states you detail here. Like, knowing it's your mind playing tricks..

I'm sorry to hear that, but glad your almost there :) Yes I go to Iowa State University. I just have a crap ton of scholarships to uphold. As far as substances go, I try not to use anything unless I become homicidal/suicidal. I'll use substances anywhere from 1 week- 8 weeks apart. And it's not that I don't think she can do what she's trying to do, I just think she's trying to poison me. As far as paranoia goes, it doesn't discriminate anymore whether I'm using or not. I just use to stop from hurting others/myself. I would like to try new meds but I've been through about 13 of them and none of them really work long term. First week-month doesn't matter cause I'm usually just sleeping and a zombie anyway. After that all the symptoms come back. So I'm trying to go a non-traditional way and try weird things, but just doesn't seem to cut it. And it doesn't seem to matter what I do in life, I'm never just really am happy, unless I'm manic. So I just stick around for that day to come. The world is so weird, and nothing adds up. Other than that just keep tagging along. That's all I can do. Thanks again :D

Thank you for the link and advice by the way everyone!

have you tried cognitive behaviour therapy? Maybe it would help?

Cognitive Behavior Therapy for the last 4 years. But I recently stopped cause my last therapist was through the school and they only allow you to go for a certain period of time. Time was already way maxed out. I enjoy it cause I get to talk every week, but never feels it does much. Can reduce some anxiety at times.

im not a doctor (although i like to play doctor in the bedroom[old joke]) but ive talked to plenty of mental health professionals. a former psych nurse invited me to this forum, although she probably wont admit it. after self medicating myself for 32yrs with alcohol,etc. i finally went to AA,free therapy from people not interested in financial gain. i had just gotten a physical in yrs and found out i had hep C. my doc told me alcohol was the worst thing i could do to my liver. my wife had left me and i knew that my 75yr old mother would not always b there to watch me get sloshed. so i took the first step to sober up. after a couple months i became afflicted with a malady called "dry drunk". my doc had given me a script for anti-depressant (he said it would help me from relapsing). i didnt fill it till a guy that wanted to b my sponser suggested i do. i had some nasty depression last fall so i had him double the dose and i joined DS. i think they both helped. interaction with other people helps me a great deal. first it was AA meetings and keeping a journal. 7yrs sober and now i come here to jabber my fool head off