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Making decisions?

Username88
Username88

OK, I just spent 30 minutes deciding if I wanted to get a pizza. Then I spent about 45 minutes trying to decide what I wanted on it. I already knew what kind of crust and sauce, but 45 minutes on toppings. Then I felt horrible for spending under $20. Then I felt guilty because I'm hella broke. Then started rationalizing ("haven't gotten a pizza in ages, haven't bought anything for myself in ages, been sick with no appetite for a week, finally feel like I might live and I'm actually kinda hungry") Still feel guilty.

Here I am giggling at myself though because who the fuck takes a total of an hour and 15 minutes trying to decide if they want/what kind of pizza, and then have to sit and rationalize to the point of obsession? LOL good lord.

Seriously though, do you guys have problems sometimies with making decisions, even something as small as ordering a pizza?
And then feel guilty about it?

Imlosingit
Imlosingit
Oh God yes!!! But I never told anyone. Ok, now I know I'm not alone and crazy on that one. So let's not feel weird about it anymore. It's all good with over thinking. :)
Username88
Username88
LOL
Super aggravating, isn't it?Funny at times though. Like the times when it's something as small as even picking out a movie.
MoobbusT
MoobbusT
Absolutely. One thing I learnt recently about guilt is that it can be caused by thinking with a lot of shoulds, ought to's, must's etc. Like when we are judging ourselves I mean. When we do it to others we can get frustrated or angry so it's a thinking pattern to keep in check. Being indecisive at times is nothing unusual in my book, especially when the budgets tight.

What toppings did you get? Enjoy your pizza!
SensitiveHoboLady
SensitiveHoboLady
Yes! I am ridiculous with GrubHub. It takes me an hour to go through about a dozen restaurants, then I change my mind and wait until next payday, or for a coupon....

I dunno, for me it's food and an indulgence. Meaning....it's important!!! Haha.
Username88
Username88
MoobusT- I ended up with a thin crust cheese and bacon with bbq sauce. :) hadn't had once since I worked at a pizza place....7 years ago. Used to make them for myself/my crew's lunch.

SensitiveHoboLady- food and indulgences are pretty damn important. LOL If I'm gonna spend money I have to be FOR. SURE that it's what I Want! :)
Sunshinegirl0228
Sunshinegirl0228
Yeah I'm horrible at decision making. It can be annoying.
Imlosingit
Imlosingit
The movie thing is trying to decide how you feel first, so you can decide what kind of movie will go along with it, one that will make you feel better, or whether you just don't care and just watch whatever comes up . Yes aggravating at times. I get that with how "how do I feel". Hormones suck. I've yelled at myself at times " oh for God sake, just pick one!" Nothing like running through the gammet, if emotions.
Imlosingit
Imlosingit
Username88, ever pick the wrong something, then get really pissed, atyourself cuz maybe you should have thought it over more carefully?
Imlosingit
Imlosingit
I hate it when I feel like, I just wasted so much time on something stupid, now I don't have time to do, such an such, but then again, I felt it was important at the time to do what I was doing, but then again, was it "really" that important? Maybe I should work on this. But how can I work on something if I don't know I'm doing, until I've done it? Ok, now I've wasted more time pondering all that.
Godsdaughter
Godsdaughter
I have trouble making decisions all the time, and with feeling guilty as a result, but that's all part of our illness. Don't be too hard on yourself.
Melise
Melise
STORY OF MY LIFE! I totally get where you are coming from.... Ive gotten to the point where I can grocery shop without having a semi breakdown. Don't even try and get me to shop for clothes. That is my "pizza" experience and it is horrible for all people involved! You are totally not alone.
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