i hope you feel better.

why are you afraid?

for example ..did you know that fred leblanc of the band Cowboy mouth is the male equlivalent of alanis morosette?

okay..that makes sense.

i did not know that..

i'm eating chocolate, and it kind of helps.

i'm am afraid I might have another spell like I did in the movie theater bathroom today only this time the "other" will win and I will attack my husband in his sleep.

i think i'll take something and then try to get to the pdoc.

or , i don't know... i guess i have to go sign up for aid.

huh?.....hold I must have missed somthing.

um, ds is glitching...i think.

oh good I thought it was me.

that sounds really scary. i'm sorry you are going through that.


can you wait to get an anti-psychotic?


what i mean to say is, if you think you are capable of doing something like this, just go to the e.r.


or if the pressure of the stress of thinking you are going to do something is too much, go to the e.r.


we will be here when you get help...

just get help if it's like you are seriously feeling like you will hurt someone or yourself.

of if the stress of thinking about those kinds of things gets too bad.

i feel heartbroken and scared like i talk too much sometimes.


i just feel like i'm flailing, and got lost...

and think too much sometimes, and then several difficult things have just happened in my life...

so i feel scared and alone.

i think i need to watch my thoughts, too.


i hope you get the help you need.


i think i am going to try and go set up some government aid for myself, so i can take lithium again.

I don't drive..hubby refuses to take me to the closest psych hospital b/c he believes it to be unnessessary....and the closest hospital (two blocks from here)..doesn't have a psych on staff. all they do is give you ativan and send you home...I have that here at the house..it barely stopped what happened today.