Big hug for you sweetie..... I am so sorry you're going through a rough time..... Would it be better for you to take a little sick time if you need to?

This was a struggle that I had as well...... xo

Have a four day weekend until Sunday night.

I am currently on disability i have recently quit a job due to bipolar problems i never had the guts to tell former employers that i was bipolar and i would male up excuses when i had to miss. I hope you are able to balance this out.

So far I was.

Stay strong! Breathe. I’m not sure the circumstances, but you can make it. I’m on disability, and that’s an option, albeit a very drawn out process, but nevertheless an option.

I am exhausted and angry.

Too !many feelings, and flash backs.

This has happened before. And the pattern is nearly the same. And I try, and miserably fail to try to do things differently, but that does not seem to change the fact that bipolar undermines my attempts to have relationships and get a job that is more than retail ,

And I burn out and when it ended badly I the past, it gets harder to get past and recover from it.

I don't feel strong. I feel like I am crumbling on the inside. Not sure how to be okay if it I can be okay.

I too have alot of flashbacks and ruminations, mine regarding a manic episode. I feel every bad emotion so strongly it's as if it poisons my whole existence. It's easy to get caught up in feel defeated and being really hard on yourself. I think in bipolar disorder, recovering from our emotions is truly harder to do than for most other people. I feel like I'm crumbling and like nothing will ever be ok again myself sometimes. I've noticed it's usually during a depression or bout of severe anxiety. A med tweak is probably needed.

I know its hard but try to go easier on yourself. Life is hard sometimes and for us it's even harder. You have to keep up the good fight.