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If I could go back...

simplymebp
simplymebp

If I could go back in time to myself at 5, I would tell Me, I  would be just fine. Someone has saved me from my scary dream. I had warm arms to hold me at night and not to be so angry with everyone in sight. If I could go back and tell myself at 5 that my actions would dictate the rest of my life. I wonder if I would understand?



If I could go back in time to myself at 10, I would tell me to speak up. Tell me they would understand. Talk to mom and dad about being hurt. That I'm being touched and that I know it wasnt love. That maybe it would change the out come later, and our sexual craze.



If I could go back in time to myself at 15, I would tell me its okay to say no. I would tell me drugs and sex are not the way to cope with all of the pain. That cutting does no good. That just because I am bipolar doesnt mean I am  no good. That I deserve respect love and friend ship too. And that holding on to hope is the best thing I can do.



If I could go back in time to myself at 20, I would tell myself I am proud of me. I jam working and setting an example, I am breaking the cycle and that really matters. I am experiencing life to the fullest and learning all about me. I am loving it.



If I stay with me in the present, I would tell myself I will be okay. Everyone has a past they cant change and that the future awaits. My husband is amazing and he loves me so much. That I have come a long way and am learning to except real love. If I could tell myself at 24, that I will do amazing things and my dreams will soar. I can do anything I set my mind too...

mlr0853
mlr0853
God Bless You Over and Over and Over Again!
The hard lessons You have "lived through/survived" will bring hope and strength to someone else at the beginning of their journey. In my own quest for well being, I choose to live 'in the day'. What happened in my past has taught me valuable lessons to help others. I Am Not going to 'label' my pain, experiences, or life. I Am Me, plain and simple, doing my best each day to live positively and giving my best each day to bring positivity to all I encounter...jmo of why I'm here. Take care, ML
Sunshinegirl0228
Sunshinegirl0228
What a wonderful post! I would love to write to myself at each age and tell what I would say to younger me. But nothing would change. I can write to myself all o want but I'll still have the scars on my body, I'd still feel rejected, I'd still be alone.

I'm so happy for you to be in such a good place now. I love hearing people here being so positive.
simplymebp
simplymebp
That's actually what this post was about. I am struggling right now but self reflecting actually really helped me. so maybe you could too
an.e.wr.27
an.e.wr.27
Beautiful post, but another thing you could think on...if you were able to go back to tell yourself those things, then you wouldn't have learned them for yourself. You would just be going off of what you were told. That's the beauty of life, someone won't always be there telling you what to do or how to feel or that things will get better as time goes on. Because of that, we are able to overcome these obstacles we never thought we would, because we listened to our hearts, no matter what we did or how badly we hurt...for those who are still here and were able to surpass that, we learned for ourselves that life can finally start looking up for us. Since we had the endurance since age 5 until now...man the shit that we go through, just to learn for ourselves is better than any kind of advice we get from other people.
Debbalina
Debbalina
What a wonderful post! Big hug.
Susieq
Susieq
Love the post, makes me thinks of my past and how far I have become
irishwriter
irishwriter
good for you that you have come so far but i too would say 'regret nothing'. our stories are our lives and are testimony to our strength and resilience. you have done so well in spite of all the obstacles on the way and while some of it has been torture it all goes to make you who you are today and that is someone to be proud of. hugs
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