Hope, is there a family member you can call to take you to the hospital? I think it is important that you see someone tonight and not try to wait until tomorrow. You do not want to keep taking xanax, it will only cause you harm to overdose on it.

If you wont go to the hospital, please call a crisis line and talk to them about how you feel and maybe they can help you work through it.

Call doctor? There are medications that can be a lot more helpful with this than xanax, in my opinion - which merely addresses anxiety.

I am taking more drugs. Lithium, propranalol, lamictal, and seroquel. I was going down and now I think that it was just wishful thinking and what I really need is to be on my meds because Bipolar is real it is real and I thought that if I went down on meds I could beat it.

Hey there, fella - I so agree with shelly and lou - and xanax Sure won't help you feel "better".

Um, NO, you Don't want to go There. Calling the doc is great when we have crises that can wait until morning, but you might not want to wait so long with all these uncomfortable thoughts in your head.

So, do you have someone around with you? Someone who can be with you right now, or even go with you to the hospital? Someone you can Hold On to?

Talk. That's why we're Here.

Yes, someone is here, but I am not going. I know this can last until tomorrow I am just going to barry myself in movies and try to distract everything that is going on

Hope, I just read through your last few journals. This ideation could be caused by alot of things. YOu are going through some heavy stress that can be a huge trigger. I know that when I am overwhelmed with several major situations, I revert to "fight or flight".

Maybe since you have not been totally honest with your pdoc, your meds are not doing what they need to be doing. Maybe a break in the hospital is what you need to get yourself together?

The issues you are dealing with can be worked through one at a time. Even the creditors can be taken care of. You need to worry about you and only you right now and figure out what is best to do now.

as long as that works, movies are a Good distraction! And I'm glad you felt comfortable enough to talk about it at all.

Just don't let your guard down, okay? We'll fuss at you Later about the whole "I can beat this" thing...it's Okay. It happens with most of us.

Now, then - the person there with you - is this someone you can talk to about any of this, and have them understand? Just so someone close to you will Know, even if you'd rather not go to the hospital or something at the moment?

Thank you, for your understanding. But, I am staying out of the hospital at all measures, even if that means having my parents monitor me until tomorrow morning.

I'm glad you are willing to let them monitor you until then. It's really nice to have parents around who will do that!

And, you know what? I, for one, didn't Meet you until tonight. It's hard to be Concerned for people when I don't know them. Same goes for others answering you now, I am sure.

Now you have More people who care, and we want to know what happens in the morning, okay?

Keep talking if you will, too. *hugs*

maybe it's time to call 911 and go to a hospital. Or at least call a suicide hotline

I wil, especially in my journals.

glad you recognise it's real & that this may well be a result of the med doses being lowered. Do hope you'll contact your doc.

Do your parents know how bad you're feeling?

I think I will join you! (Not trying to be unempathetic, but a difficult week.)

oops didn't read the whole thread. my bad. glad your parents are there to monitor you. you scared me.