Glad you are home and OK. Doesn't sound like fun, glad you decide that will never happen again :)

I am glad you are okay. Hugs. xo

Hey, SuninBloom. :( Beem missing seeing you, wondered how things were going.

That sounds Horrible, but I'm glad you didn't die, hon. Yeah, I remember someone else that tried that last year, and he said the Same Thing.

What things are you thinking about doing differently now that you are back home?

*hugs*

i am so sorry you went through all that,so happy they were able to save you.good thing you werent alone. did the pdoc change any meds to help with the suicidal thoughts. I am so glad your here to talk about. feel better! blessing

I'm glad you're back online and that you vowed never to do this again.

I've been thru the process twice, the last one being 2 1/2 years ago. I will never forget the horror of drinking that charcoal!

The nurses and doctor explained it is meant to clear all the drugs out of the body as soon as possible. This minimizes the damage to your kidneys.

It is strange to me how protecting my kidneys and avoiding charcoal is enough to prevent me from overdosing again. Well, there are other reasons for not going suicidal any more, but that would be off topic.

Glad to have you back!!!

Wow! So sorry to hear you went through this. They put the needle directly into the vein or the artery at right angles and it is terrible. I used to have it for asthma. Now that they have the electronic monitors, I don't get why they made you do that.

BIg hugs, and hope you recover soon.

Hope you are feeling better. I have been there before.... I found it fun but then reality set in when my grandma was in the hospital and the lady remembered me.... I was the one that was playing with the heart rate monitor the day I over dosed.... It was on my mom's birthday on top of that.... :( I'm glad you are at home and safe at this point. Come here when you need an escape and we will talk to you and keep you safe through the computer screen.

Your experience sounded similar to mine, except that my fiance wouldn't even drive me to the hospital. He didn't even want to call an ambulance. Instead he called a favour from a friend. In retrospect, I could've died in those moments.

Then they DID shove a tube down my throat and made me vomit everything out. And then they poked needles on my veins to do a blood test to determine the level of lithium in my body (I OD'ed on lithium).

Then they put me in observation ward for the night and put me in the psychiatric ward AGAINST MY WILL the next day. I was treated like a child and was allowed only 5 mins bathroom time.

So I understand your frustration from wanting to die to wanting to kill someone.

I don't want to do it again either. Hopefully I won't. I don't know. Sometimes I think and consider other solutions that would be better and more permanent, but then I think of the so called good things in life (blah! whatever!) and so I just don't do them.

I'm glad you're alright. If you wanna talk, you can add me or message me. Just in case there's some leftover feelings of... I don't know. Just glad you're okay. Hugs.

I'm so sorry to hear that you had to go through all that.....glad you are home and doing better.....((big hugs))

Are you going to be following up with a tdoc??

I'm glad you're home and safe. The medicos did you a huge favour and you might be angry with them right now, but maybe that will change in the future.

My suicide attempt went a lot further and I ended up in a coma for 5 days with multiple interventions to save me - I think the electric paddles, definitely dialysis and they put the charcoal stuff through my veins, so I'm glad I wasn't conscious for that. But Man the psychosis as I was coming out - nothing like I had experienced years before when I detoxed from booze for the last time. This was big, and if I wasn't already crazy before that, the psychosis would do that for ya.

Because of the MASSIVE overdose I took, which was basically EVERYTHING I had stocked, my kidneys were in real danger of packing up. Once I was conscious, you've never seen a woman so intent on looking at her wee to see whether it was dark!! lol

I'm telling you all this because this has been my "Rock Bottom" in mental illness, much more dramatic than had been my Rock Bottom with booze - which beleive me was dramatic enough. It can the the point from which you can catapault yourself into a new life, seize new solutions, go to the ends of the Earth to seek things that will help you. Be a compliant patient, but also be Devil's Advocate with with your psych all the time (something Ididn't do in the years leading up to the attempt - bad Idea, I need to have been less trusting).

But welcome back Kiddo, you can re-boot now and start again.

Im so sorry you went through that, but im so glad you are ok.
Comforting hugs

Been there done that. Sorry it happened to you. Thanks for telling us so we can be a help to you now. Turn the page and start all over.
HUGS

I had to drink charcoal before and I only sipped it then set it down and left it. I had not taken enough pills to do any damage and was not even suicidal. They just took my blood and saw that it was elevated.

It was absolutely horrible. I can't imagine having to gag that whole huge cup down.

i'm sorry you went through that, but i'm glad you survived.

Im glad they helped you even though it was tough....sometimes we do need to not make all of the decisions....big hug for you .. no place like home...x