Can I suggest that one or both of you hit ignore?

Mush you are rightly upset and this situation is very diofficult for you - whizz I see you are trying to help.

I get that you both have your reasons for writing as you are and that you are both right - it's just not coming over that way and you will end up clashing further.

I don't want anyone getting warnings etc.

thanks curious i know ive been out of line

i will indeed just ignore this now because genuinely.

LOL

As harsh as you may think she's being.. I think Wizz offers some valid points..

When you put up your hallucination posts you say you feel like you are lying trying to tell people about them.. when hallucinations and delusions came up for me.. i wasnt concerned about convincing others. Because since that was my reality it didnt need treatment.. but the crippling anxiety and depression.. those needed treatment.. you don't believe anything else when delusional but what you believe and convincing others really isn't a goal.its more like.. stuck in another dimension and there is no help. Who cares of anyone believes.. because it is happening to you.

I'm sorry your mom held off what the doc thought and didn't seek the proper help for you in the meanwhile. That does suck. Bipolar and borderline.. both either.. the fact remains that you are not getting any help and I'm glad you will finally see a doc soon and get to a treatment plan that best suits you.

just going to request to close this post

everyone experiences things differently.

this is not my first experience with psychosis.

therefore i know what is happening and i know i need to get it fixed.

is that bad ? because it seems i should just bugger off from this board now you all think ive got borderline. funny.

Mush.. I don't know what your dx is.. I'm no doc.. I know my daughter is BP and she gets help from BP meds.. o also think she has some borderline and could use help for that too.. but since borderline is such a bad word they wont help her with it.. so I'm jet thinking if no one will treat it.. no help can be had.

And why would you go? Many in here have BP and borderline.. just wish more therapy were being passed out for the lot.. its effective.

I'm wondering if I may have it too.. my rl relationships suck.. one thing happens to piss me off and I never talk to someone again.. I'm a real life nightmare.. I get along better over the phone than face to face any day.. what's that about..

i am complete wreck this past week

i can attach myself to anything

so im just going because its ridiculous im half way through one thing

and then something explodes and then im just a wreck

and i cant say what i want

and i dont want to be a bitch

i have had in the past had obvious symptoms i can see why it was placed on me when i was 14/15.

i left that hosptial a different person. they dont understand people change and grow.

this is why i am so angry because i know i have changed and i have made the effort to change and be aware and be positive.

these things that happen now its like it just creeps up on me and i never know when its not something i recognise as a controllable behaviour. its like someones got a switchboard.

pressing random buttons and seeing what the fuck happens.

I'm sorry mush.. mental illness is really out of our control if it weren't we wouldn't need docs and meds and therapy. Just breathe and become your own advocate.. fight for treatment.. I think I'm going to do that with you now.. even tho I hate the docs I have access to. It's better than going at it alone..

sorry if ive snapped at you.
its nothing personal. just me venting online and forgetting there are other humans behind the keyboard.

closed at mush's request.