Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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Bird25
Bird25

I am new to this site. Don’t know exactly what I’m doing. What I do know is that I woke up very depressed and scared about being very depressed. I am a veteran of depressions and mania (depression mostly) and all things bipolar. I’ve had this for 50 years. Still every time I have a window—this time a year—of freedom from depression I think WOW this is it. I’m home free. Which is ridiculous because I have never been home free. I wrote in my journal just now. I’ve been here “before and before and before.”


My bipolar is very med resistant. I’ve been on many meds. I exercise. Am mindful. Bow to Buddha. Bow to anybody. Keep going. 


I am not suicidial. But I feel very old with this. My sad lamp did not cheer me up. My cat failed to comfort me. Which is not a good sign.


Does this relate to anybody? Can you write me? Anything?

arfie
arfie
Hello Bird. Welcome to DS. Sorry for what brings you here, but glad you are here.

I relate in full, living color, all the way to the med resistant symptoms. One of the things which does help me is reaching out to my therapy support network, kinda like what you just did with this very post.

Did it help any?

Gentlest of support while you find what works for you. There are answers to be found, mastered and/or tailored to fit.
beckyp
beckyp
Welcome to the group. Sorry you are having such a bad depressive episode. Hope you start to feel better soon.
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
Welcome to the group..... this is a good place to come

I'm sorry that you're struggling right now.... I am to actually.... When I'm in a depression it always feels to me like it goes on forever and I'll never find stability again

These are times that I try and bring gratitude to the forefront …… Big hug......xo
Jenniferswe
Jenniferswe
Welcome to DS. I'm feeling very depressed to now. It makes me afraid that I will never feel better. I know how tiring batting bipolar is. Big hugs.
Bird25
Bird25
Thanks to arfie, Becky, SunCloudJD, and jenniferswe. So appreciate your kindness and empathy. I went to my drumming group and drummed. The message I got (from wherever) is that I AM BRAVE and I AM STRONG. Which is true for all of us. I hope to talk again soon. Respond too.
Snipsnipe
Snipsnipe
no i don't relate, but i respect how you "fight the good fight"
i think if i did relate that i'd have even more respect for how you handle things
niclear
niclear
Yes, I can relate! I have severe anxiety that comes in waves. It seems like I will be good, then things spiral out of control. I tried meds, too, and found they weren’t for me. I am so sorry, I know how discouraging and draining it can be! Have you gone to counseling? Group sessions? I am praying for you!
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