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This may seem like a totally weird question but I need to know if this has happened to anyone else here. I never told anyone before but after being told that some people in a state of mania experience a feeling that they have extraordinary powers or abilities, I realized that I never thought this applied to me....but it does.
People had explained this to me before but they talked about people leaping off buildings because they thought they could fly and my experiences were never that extreme.
I've actually thought I could fly before but had to harness that power properly to use it. I would stand still (arms down not up) and concentrate until I was shaking trying to just get a few inches off the ground. I thought anyone who tried hard enough, could do it...I just lacked practice. I have dreamed that same thing and in those dreams in worked either with me moving just a few inches or feet. Other times, I thought I had memories of that happening and I couldn't figure out if I was awake or asleep.
I freaked out my sister in a restaurant because I was holding my hands close to each other trying to create a ball/spark of electricity. It wasn't the first time I had tried to conduct electricity between my hands but the first time someone had 'caught' me. I didn't even realize that I wasn't being 'subtle' about it.
The only reason I came to the realization that it might be connected is because I was watching a support video about being manic and they mentioned people thinking they had extraordinary powers and showed a picture of a girl with her hands cupped together with an orb of light in them and I said "OMG, that has been me..."
I've brushed it off several times in the past as me just being silly or day dreaming but in those moments, I am positive that I can do it and sometimes even get very agitated when I can't. I've loved superheroes and comics since I was a kid and sometimes thought it was just me foolishly wishing that there was something about me that was special.
People had explained this to me before but they talked about people leaping off buildings because they thought they could fly and my experiences were never that extreme.
I've actually thought I could fly before but had to harness that power properly to use it. I would stand still (arms down not up) and concentrate until I was shaking trying to just get a few inches off the ground. I thought anyone who tried hard enough, could do it...I just lacked practice. I have dreamed that same thing and in those dreams in worked either with me moving just a few inches or feet. Other times, I thought I had memories of that happening and I couldn't figure out if I was awake or asleep.
I freaked out my sister in a restaurant because I was holding my hands close to each other trying to create a ball/spark of electricity. It wasn't the first time I had tried to conduct electricity between my hands but the first time someone had 'caught' me. I didn't even realize that I wasn't being 'subtle' about it.
The only reason I came to the realization that it might be connected is because I was watching a support video about being manic and they mentioned people thinking they had extraordinary powers and showed a picture of a girl with her hands cupped together with an orb of light in them and I said "OMG, that has been me..."
I've brushed it off several times in the past as me just being silly or day dreaming but in those moments, I am positive that I can do it and sometimes even get very agitated when I can't. I've loved superheroes and comics since I was a kid and sometimes thought it was just me foolishly wishing that there was something about me that was special.
i've had people tell me i'm 'powerful' before, quite a few actually... that didn't help me in those states.
for me, it is mostly my thoughts/other people's thoughts.
for instance, i think i can create/change/destroy/move/alter things with them..
but any annoying ass new-ager is going to preach that shit like it's the gold standard of spiritual knowledge, and they are THE FIRST to KNOW! "oh my GOD, i read the Secret... i'm a f*ckin' GEENYUS"
yeah, ok ok , we influence crap with our thoughts... go read " As a Man Thinketh " published 1902... and tell me it's new.
so i don't know, because there's energy, too.. and you actually can make a "ball" of energy between your hands... i've done it in " dance chuch" where they used elements of chi qigong or thai chi or some eastern art...
we do influence things with our thoughts..
there supposedly have been yogis who can live on nothing but light and coffee or some crap, or bi-locating monks.. i think there is supposed documentation of Theresa of Avila levitating so to speak..
i actually think it could be possible..
when we're manic we're more aware of energy, etc. but it gets blown up out of proportion to a degree that is dangerous.. my secret theory, is it has something to do with kundalini and that mania is when the masculine side is over-activated, like when yogis raise the snake and don't get the feminine going equally (yin, cold, dark etc.) and they fry up, until they figure it out.. this is documented, though i wish i could be more academic in my references, i think the two are related- mania and masculine/yang (heat,energy, light etc.)
my theory. i believe they're somehow related.
I've also thought I could suck energy out of other people.
Never tried flying though, even in my dreams I don't fly very well, always crashing into things.
it's a big part of my schizoaffective diagnosis