Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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TC40
TC40

 I am  having a really tough time. I am exhausted. I am struggling financially. I am having a very hard time at work. I'm underpaid and overworked. And grossly unappreciated. Also, because of the nature of the work I am in,  the things that I hear and read about are both disturbing and depressing. I had bad dreams the other night about something I read at work. I am actively searching for another job. I am what is known as a "functionally mentally ill" human. I get up and go to work full time. But inside I am a F**** mess. I am a mixture of irritability, depression and anxiety all the time. Every day, I have to fight with all my might to not just say I'm sick and go home. When I do make it to the end of the day, I go straight home and hide. All I do is hide and sleep

malibumark
malibumark
I am so sorry you're struggling. I don't know the specifics of what you're going through - but I do know what it's like when you have to push yourself to just keep at it.. I know you said financially you're struggling too but can you plan any small treat for yourself on your day off? Like go out and get a Starbucks if that is affordable? That was my treat once a week many years ago. It was all I could afford 1 Starbucks Frappuccino lol and then I would hide in my apartment after work. The reward though small helped me feel better. I hope you can find better work. Peace, MM
TC40
TC40
Thank you. It is so hard. I am sitting here chewing my fingernail off.
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
What about seeing a life coach TC?.... He/she may be able to offer you some guidance as to what might be a good plan for your future and employment
Marcylb
Marcylb
I'm so sorry you're not doing ok. The best advice I got from my psych and I think someone else said this is plan something to look forward to even if it is just 1 coffee at the end of the week as a reward for getting through.
chris138
chris138
Sorry TC40. I have been reading your posts for a while now. I can't offer much, just that I feel for you and to say hang in there. Just keep searching for a new avenue. I hope that things get better for you.
mlr0853
mlr0853
like Chris, working can be very hard with the ups and downs...I did it for 27 years. You might try the unemployment office, they usually have postings for jobs or indeed.com. it is hard to start something new, scary, however based on your current work, I think I'd push past the fear and bite the bullet to get out of that toxic situation. Best to you. ml
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