I'm happy you reached out. It really shows that you have hope for some relief. I definitely understand the grey area of having passive suicidal thoughts. Usually when I am in that in-between of safe and unsafe I try to reduce my daily demands so stress doesn't cause it to escalate. Something like letting work/school know I am not feeling well. I hope you are being safe.

Hang in there! There is a lot of truth to the saying "this too shall pass". Try to rest as much as possible and surround yourself with things/people that make you feel happy. I also have adhd and bipolar. It is not an easy road but it sounds like you found the rights meds. That is awesome! Sending hugs :)

How long has this been going on S?.... If it's more than a couple of weeks and if you're suicidal I would either call your doc or go to emerg

A thought doesn't require an action... Please hang onto that....It's a symptom and symptoms can be dealt with.... Big squishy hug....xo

Oh, I am so sorry that you are feeling so yuck right now. I am glad that you are reaching out and realize that you have so much to live for because you do. What feels terrible right now could feel differently come later this evening or by tomorrow. Before you make any severe reactions, please pause and step back, take a run, call a friend. Of course if you feel suicidal or need to talk, please call 1-800-273-8255 provides 24/7, free and confidential support for people in distress, prevention and crisis resources for you or your loved ones. Please don't hesitate to use that number. In the meantime, reach out to your doctor again to see if he can help some more. I will be praying for you "Sayrah0315". You got this! God bless

Do you have a therapist? Mine has been immensely helpful when I have suicidal thoughts. What kind of support system do you have ? Friends or family you can reach out to and lean on?

HUGS! What gets me through the suicide thoughts (especially when my meds weren't quite right) is looking at evidence from my last episode: things always eventually feel better. I can counter anyone else's advice with no problem, but not my own experience.

I've also spent some time listening to the negative, suicidal side (from a distance/ without judgment). Words like "Why am I doing any of this" are simply unattached words that bounce around in my head from time to time. They don't have power to change my feelings unless I let them.

Hope this helps and hope you're feeling better!

Thanks for the support everyone! I actually ended up texting a crisis hotline and got with a therapist. It helped a little. And I do have a therapist and psychiatrist just it was late at night. It got a little better then I ended up with kidney stones I’m currently trying to pass so life has been kind of hectic. And I’m trying to move into my house I just brought.

Here are some more crisis resources sweetie....xo

https://support.dailystrength.org/hc/en-us/articles/207430776-What-if-I-need-emergency-help-

It sounds the news and all the bad stuff on it. They say depression has gone up since the pandemic started. Life have become difficult for many. Big hugs.