I'm so sorry you're feeling like dying?? What has happened to get you to this dark place? What is it you think you've done? I'm hear to listen, but I don't understand. Could you help me out with that?
For now, I hope you'll take many deep breaths and try to clear your mind. You sound to me as if you are being crushed by your own thoughts. I don't know what else to say right this moment except that if you need help outside of here, right here, you have to go at it headstrong and with a plan ~ something positive.
Take your feelings to heart and go with them ~ but go forward, please. Hugs to you.

Just one more week until the commercial ho-ho is over, Bravered.

Gentlest of hugs to get you through.

Big hug for you Bravered..... I'm sorry you're in a dark place.... Reflection and insight are so important ... It's no good to beat yourself up however if you want to change you can do that... There's help if you need it... Therapy, anger management ect
I find Christmas hard as well.... I've thought I should get involved with a soup kitchen or something like that as I think it would really lift my spirits.... Big hug for you sweetie... We can get through this together......xo

Thank you guys!!

I feel lonely at Christmas, too. Big hugs.

Jennifer. I just want my kids my own family. Christmas is lonely for me too. I get so jealous of my friends pictures. I am so ashamed of my life. It's so empty and sad. I feel so like a failure. It hurts. I want my own family. I'm so sad.

I'm sorry your lonely Jennifer

Thank you iwontbackdown. I want my own family and my kids back. I don't think I'll ever get them back. Christmas is so hard I see my friends married with their kids having a ball with their families. It makes me so sad

Arfie I don't want it to be over. I love Christmas I just want to have a Christmas like my friends with my own family and my kids and a husband and a family. My life is so sad and empty. I feel like a failure. I have nothing. I am only 30 and my life is shameful.

so why can't you be with your kids?

I believe that life will get better, it always does, but not until the depression passes. And it is a known fact that when we are depressed, nothing is right, and the last thing we know how to do is to love ourselves. You DO have friends. I don't know about real life scenarios, but you most definitely have friends here on DS. And you have people who care about you and are here to help. Ask and you shall receive. Big Hugs

I wonder too where your kids are? What is there that needs to be made right? Christmas can be a hard time, is there anyone else you know to spend some time with? Christmas hugs

It is very difficult to talk about I am sick so I can't take care of my kids

I would rather mot discuss that thank you

Life will get better Braveredhead! Stick around and don't quit before the miracle happens....it may take some time but believe me it happens!

((((Hugs)))) Love yourself hon!