you can't have your kids because you are sick? That seems a bit off.

not sure what kind of sickness you are talking about and I get you don't want to talk about it but maybe if that could be fixed you would feel alot happier. That and I think as you've proved time and again you need to get out of the abusive relationship you are in.

My only child, a son, does not communicate with me. But I refuse to let that sadness overwhelm my life. I have other family and friends. I am blessed. I hope your spirits will lift. I love the Christmas carol O Little Town of Bethlehem. How still we see thee rise! Above thy deep and dreamless sleep the silent ( ) go by. And in thy dark streets shineth the Everlasting Light. How silently, how silently the Wondrous Gift is given!

Sorry, I meant "how still we see thee LIE". And now I remember it's the silent STARS go by. I am 71, forgive me.

at least you have a few family members left. a lot of us have absolutely no one and are absolutely alone right now. maybe have gratitude that there is at least someone.

Acuriousfish I think you are really being mean and I would like it if you wouldn't comment on my posts anymore. Thank you.

Thank you guys for the encouraging and uplifting comments. I really don't need to be judged or put down anymore than life already does. I'm sure you all can agree we want to be talked to with love and respect. I don't need any help. I can make my own decisions. If you cant respect my boundaries then you don't need to comment.

really? because I asked you once about your children as you mention them again and again (as have others) and said (as many have) that you need to get out of your abusive relationship? Why am I being single out here?

You say you can make your own decisions but don't forget you are posting as questions. "Will my life get better? " and all the questions previously that we have answered.

maybe unlike others who are content just to give you blind sympathy I'm one of the ones that is trying to get you to actually to change the situation so you don't waste years of your life in regret saying the same thing over and over again. Blind sympathy just encourages the status quo.

Maybe it's a guy thing that I seek to fix things.

Once you post you cannot control what the answers are - you cannot tell people not to post unless they are actually being abusive and no one here has done that.

If you don't like what I say - or others then put us on ignore.

I can't truely feel your pain, however, i may be in the same situation as yours, i am divorced, my kid with my wife 2000 miles away, so hardly get to see him. I think crying helps, it does for me crying sobs away some of the pain that i feel. I know i would like my kid to stay with me but i can't either as i am BP and wife divorced me on those grounds and took the custody of my 8 yr old kid. At one level i had to accept that fact with a heavy heart on the other hand it hurts me like hell to lose the thing i love the most in my life. So there is no harm to cry out, let the tears flow and let out the pain but just don't do anything stupid because of the pain. I dont know what else to suggest...Hugs..

hi sweetguy, do you still have access to your child? Don't forget that when they get older you maybe able to rebuild your relationship with your child

I do have visitation rights but due to distance and other factors, i am able to physically meet him only twice a year. Yes lets hope that when he gets older their is a chance to rebuild.

just hold onto that - there is definately hope for the future

I'm sorry a curious fish I know you were just trying to help. Thank you. I need to change a lot of things. I'm sorry I said that to you and got upset. I hope you have a merry Christmas and thank you for your help