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Even though meds keep my BP under control, I still have moments of sudden rage. I have broken many a door and thrown many an object in these rages. Triggers are so numerous.
Due to this rage and deteriorating mind, I cannot work. Since these uncontrollable rages begin within a second, I fear I may hurt coworkers. I have already hurt family and neighbors... It just scares me to death. I have already had around 20 rage incidents at work the past 18 years... Lost my job due to them many times.
The pdocs have placed me on meds to control this rage but they leave me like a zombie so I do not take them. I already hardly feel happiness or sadness anymore. Everything is just blah.
Then comes my appt a few days ago. The pdoc said my rage had nothing to do with BP and that I was doing it to get attetnion!!! WTF??? I almost flew into a rage there but did not. Only God knows why I did not. I would have probably killed her.
See I brought in a phone I broke during a rage incident to show them what happens. I told them I was normal and even tempered when the phone rang. I answered and was given bad news - a contractor could not perform promised work. I just lost it within a second and broke the phone. So this pdoc says, "that's just a phone and can be replaced!" meaning that I was doing this for attention. WTF??? I was home alone at the time. And then the therapist cheerped in that I was fulling a self prophsey - that I think a rage incident will occur so it does. WTF. I do not wish these to occur. It kills off more brain cells (I feel) and it takes a good week to recover from them.
I am stuck with this pdoc as I am poor so use the county mental health facility.
So have any of you been told that your BP rage was of your own creation and nothing to do with your BP?
What BP rage incident would you like to share here?
One of mine was at work. I feel into rage, stormed out of the office, slammed open a glass door, the door hit the stop and shattered all the glass out of the door like rain falling. Luckily it was safety glass so I did not get cut.
Due to this rage and deteriorating mind, I cannot work. Since these uncontrollable rages begin within a second, I fear I may hurt coworkers. I have already hurt family and neighbors... It just scares me to death. I have already had around 20 rage incidents at work the past 18 years... Lost my job due to them many times.
The pdocs have placed me on meds to control this rage but they leave me like a zombie so I do not take them. I already hardly feel happiness or sadness anymore. Everything is just blah.
Then comes my appt a few days ago. The pdoc said my rage had nothing to do with BP and that I was doing it to get attetnion!!! WTF??? I almost flew into a rage there but did not. Only God knows why I did not. I would have probably killed her.
See I brought in a phone I broke during a rage incident to show them what happens. I told them I was normal and even tempered when the phone rang. I answered and was given bad news - a contractor could not perform promised work. I just lost it within a second and broke the phone. So this pdoc says, "that's just a phone and can be replaced!" meaning that I was doing this for attention. WTF??? I was home alone at the time. And then the therapist cheerped in that I was fulling a self prophsey - that I think a rage incident will occur so it does. WTF. I do not wish these to occur. It kills off more brain cells (I feel) and it takes a good week to recover from them.
I am stuck with this pdoc as I am poor so use the county mental health facility.
So have any of you been told that your BP rage was of your own creation and nothing to do with your BP?
What BP rage incident would you like to share here?
One of mine was at work. I feel into rage, stormed out of the office, slammed open a glass door, the door hit the stop and shattered all the glass out of the door like rain falling. Luckily it was safety glass so I did not get cut.
Shelly4
I find your last post much more informative of your situation. You might look into "Adrenal gland tumor". My son has these exact symptoms along with elevated, sporadic high blood pressure. He becomes highly agitated, he has anxiety and panic attacks, and he flushes easily and sweats profusely. The adrenal gland is responsible for producing several hormones that equalize our moods. You can find info about it if you google it. Look up info on the pheochromocytoma type of adrenal tumor. This type of tumor is often overlooked and can be very life threatening because of the unexpected elevated blood pressure...xo
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That is one of my biggest issues! My rages are awful and I've punched a hole through a wall, I've broken stuff, I've torn up things. Broke a Texas Instrument Calculater to bits. I trip to flip a Queen sized mattress off of the box spring--with my fiance still on it. Verbally I am even worse. It usually ends withme collapsing onto the floor and crying uncontrollably.
deleted_user
Woops, I TRIED to flip over a Queen sized mattress with my fiance still on it, not I "trip".
deleted_user
Do you remember after the incidents, I had a rage one day when my mom was dying and my sister set me off saying i was prejudice due to me not liking brown eggs, omg ,, i went totally off, slapped the husband and the child and slept in the car the whole night, but do not remember what was said or how i acted until my hubby told me. it was very scary, that was the first time i didnt remember, others i do
deleted_user
Hmm. Several I would not care to share spring to mind. One that I will share. I flew into a rage over something relatively minor and flipped an oak pedestal table. It didn't seem hard at the time but it was a pretty heavy table. My dog jumped through an open window to get away from me. Luckily the dogs I have now have never seen me act like that.
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