Huge hug for you sweetie... Grief is so very painful .. I think when we're grieving it's a time to take baby steps... One day, one hour, one minute at a time... Bless you...xo

I hear you. To answer "when do I go on?" I say: you are, one small step at a time. Some days with much more pain involved, some days more deliberarely than others, and some days you go on from the safety of your bed.... I really hear you, I lost my mother in November, I'm only 34 (33 when she died- she was SO young, only 58- I hate cancer!) and I'm thinking about similar things: She was so proud of me for going to grad school, I graduate in December and she won't be there, I got engaged in December and she won't be at my wedding, she won't be there when I have children. It hurts SO much even though I told myself this was likely what was going to happen, I did my research on her "odds" when she was diagnosed which is morbid I know but I really needed to prepare myself. It doesn't make it any easier. I have my days where none of it seems worth it, my mom was a HUGE cheerleader and support in my life, I also don't have any relationship with my father. On my bad days I think I'd have no way of paying off my student loans if I don't finish my darn degree, I get angry at my school for the lack of support, I get angry, angry, angry at the unfairness of I was just beginning to get my life on track only to have my mom ripped away from me. Then I guess I also think this is how I honor my mom who was so proud of what I was working toward: to keep going, to make the world more beautiful (my mom's favorite children's book was Miss. Rumphius- a woman who set out to make the world more beautiful- just like my mom) It's slow, and I can assure you I am not there yet. But, I offer you my support and please know in whatever way I can, I get it. It stinks. *hugs*

I understand exactly what you are saying. I graduated college this year and my mother was not able to be there. She was my number one supporter and the reason I was able to walk across that stage. My other family members are very supportive and encouraging, but it isn't the same as having your mom present at life changing events that you will continue have. As hard as it is, life continues and we have to as well. Even on my best days I still miss my mom so I don't know if it ever completely stops hurting. I can't fully answer that question though because it has only been a year since my mom passed. I hope this helps. I wish you all the best.

I am so sorry for your loss.

Here is where words are very important. We will miss our loved ones for ever, but morning is temporary. It may be long, bit it will not be for ever!

My wife, who lost her father about 30 years ago, says that things that used to make her sad (like cute things the kids did) now make her smile and say (or think) "dad would have liked that"!

Gentle hugs, we can get there

Apieceofmyheart is right, you can only take one step at a time. I am so sorry for your loss.

Hi Emily. I lost my mum 3months ago and while she thankfully made it to my graduation two years ago she will never see me married or a mother. Like your mum my mum was so proud of me, she made me want to acchieve great things because of her love and support. I feel so lost and angry and hurt and I have no answers at the moment. After three months it's raw pain for me but I really hope by some miracle it changes for us. I don't know how but know that I am here for you any time you want to talk x