I'm so very sorry. I know our faith in God will see us both through, but we must grieve. I don't know what to do either, but grieve. I lost my mother December 13th. I was so used to taking care of her, I don't know what to do. But, losing your husband, now, that is something even harder. I

I think the key is to get out and be with people if you can. And also just get out and be busy. Get some new interests in your life as a distraction. Volunteer, or something.

I am so very sorry for your loss.

Pepper

Big hug for you Gracie.... I am so very sorry for your loss.... Losing your life partner would be so very hard.... There is a Widows and Widowers board on here that is a very supportive place to be that is for people who will know just where you're coming from.... Another hug and a blessing....xo

https://www.dailystrength.org/group/widows-widowers

I know how empty you feel as I feel the same way
I lost my husband about two years--very unexpected death..he got off a plane and died of a pulmonary embolism
I feel empty and lost. I push myself to try to engage but all I feel is grief and like a part of me has been amputated.
I don't have any advise other than to continue to talk about how you feel

Hello Gracie
My husband died on 8/6/2016 after batlling cancer on and off for 5 years. he died at 44 years old. i met him 30 years ago and was married for 19 years. I have never been alone either , as I went from my fathers home to ours when I got married. I often wonder how can this be God's plan for me? I understand your feeling of being totally alone for first time. well i have my 9 and 16 year olds..but that causes more fear because i dont know how to live alone, let alone parent alone. God Bless. you are very brave and strong to be able to visit this site just 4 days later

Gracie, I'm so there with you! Lost my husband 12/17/16 - just 5 weeks or so ago and my head is still spinning and I don't know which way is up. I'm trying to push forward one hour at a time. I would like to think on a scale of one day at a time, but even that feels too big right now.
I just joined this site too and am finding such kindness. I don't know that we'll find solutions here, but if we can find suggestions and comments that help us know we aren't alone, I've got to believe that will help.
Someone gave me a book of daily short readings called "Healing After Loss". It's by Martha Whitmore Hickman. It's something I look forward to each morning when I first wake up, as it always seems to resonate. Just thought I'd share the name.
We can do this, Gracie - 1 hour at a time! Sending you love, hugs and prayers.

Gracie, I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my husband 1/8/17 and it's been beyond difficult. However, although it doesn't seem like it, if I compare the days, it is evident that I am able to do a little more every day. Honestly, I don't really want to go out because it seems everything reminds me of him but I tell myself, just go to the store or the post office or take care of some bills. I try to do a little something even when it doesn't feel good. 3 weeks ago, I barely could get in the shower or get out of my pajamas. There are times throughout the day that I am overwhelmed and wouldn't mind if a bus hits me but 3 weeks ago those thoughts were more constant. I get some breaks now -- still terribly sad at those times but a slight release from the despair. My heart is broken in a million pieces and the pain is so deep but I know any attempts even little ones will help me toward healing. Don't push yourself too fast, this just happened, but realize there are so many people in this world feeling just like you. You are not alone and I totally can relate to what you are going through.

Gracie,
I am so sorry for your loss, and admire your strength and ability to reach out so soon after your husband passed away. I have not lost a spouse, but my grandmother six years ago. I remember the pain in my chest being so heavy that at times I felt like I could not breathe. I just took it one day at a time, and relied on my faith in God. You mentioned that you were going to church...I encourage you to go back. Nothing will substitute for the peace that only God can bring. You are not alone in your pain and grief. I will be praying for you.

I too am living alone for the first time at 60 years old. My girls are grown and have children of their own.

I am sorry for your loss. I understand how you feel I lost my husband In October 2016. I was with him since I was 20 years old. I just turned 54 a few weeks after he passed away. We were together for 33 years. I also am living alone for the first time. I also took care of my husband until he passed away. Although I lost him six weeks later I have no regrets staying home to take care of him. He was the love of my life. The weekends are the worst for me because I am so alone and don't have him to talk to anymore. Talking to people and getting out as often as you can has helped me get through the worst time in my life. Take it one day at a time like all of us are trying to do. Take Care.