Three weeks ago, today, my mother died.  She had been having health problems but nothing serious enough that the doctors thought she would die.  She was very dehydrated, causing her blood pressure to be low, and she was fainting from that.  She was in the hospital receiving IV fluids.  She had called me that morning, on my way to work, and told me that she was feeling better due to the fluids.  She sounded good on the phone.  We made small talk and told each other, I love you.  Tweleve hours later she arrested and died.  I was completely shocked.  I'm 49 years old and my world feels like it has ended.  I am an only child and my mother and I were extremely close.  This month my husband and I will be celebrating 25 years of marriage.  I told my mom that I was going to have a party to celebrate.  I never dreamed that I would be sending invitations to her memorial and not to our silver wedding anniversary celebration.  I feel lost.  I feel pain that I have never felt in my life.  It's all I can do to get through the day/work.  Sometimes it feels so bad that I just want to die myself. It doens't matter how old you are, when your mother dies IT HURTS!!!!!  I'm hoping this support forum can help me during this difficult process.