Another share from one of my meditation readers. My own lifelong struggle with anxiety started from a highly dysfunctional childhood, so for me, this is an especially important meditation. At 66 years of age, dysfunctional habits from my childhood still emerge often enough to need unlearning. Then we get to the Corona marshal laws which have disabled 40 odd years of psychotherapy tools. How do I unlearn those in order to comply with the marshal laws? Prayers in progress that typing out this meditation here will help to reinforce it in my damaged brain. For me, unlearning is much harder than learning.
The first problem for all of us, men and women, is not to learn, but to unlearn. ~Gloria Steinem
So much of our lives has been spent learning information that is either useless or dysfunctional. Very little time is spent teaching us how to live, how to take care of ourselves, how to live with one another or how to be in touch with our feelings and know what we want and need.
We have spent so much time learning how to stuff our feelings and be out of touch with ourselves that we often experience our hearts and minds as foreign territory.
What a miracle it is that after all these years of trying to shut off our awarenesses, stuff our feelings and be someone other than ourselves, we're still in there somewhere! We just need to peel off the learnings to find us.
When I feel like a stranger in a strange land, maybe I am. And, remember, someone must be in there feeling all this!
Thank you for the sharing space.
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