I can definitely relate-up to today people were like just relax- just turn your mind off; I don't think people understand how intense and difficult it is to control a mind that consistently races. And their words only make you more nervous cause it sends you into overdrive, like serious overdrive. Trying to cease . But look at it this way; you're in therapy - which means you're a step in the right direction already; you're brave enough and honest enough to confront your anxiety and seek a solution- many don't. You have done well so far- just keep at it :)

There are times I can distract myself from the negative thoughts, but usually not for long. It’s exhausting sometimes and as soon as I’m done I get the negative thoughts again. I went to a communion party yesterday and it was extra cool because I didn’t think about anything for a few hours. As soon as I got home I started thinking about all that stuff.

Yup late at night when my insomnia is acting up is the worst. Sending you huhs and positive vibes dear friend. You are taking all the right steps. Its not easy.

Yup, I definitely have that problem. Years of psychotherapy work have given me enough coping tools that the moments of peace are coming more often these days, but they are still moments away from my next anxiety attack. Sigh. . . Progress over perfection.

For what it's worth, I bet you wouldn't recognize the problem in me if you saw me in a random public place, just living my life. It's dangerous to compare other people's outsides to your own insides. There is an awful lot that doesn't show on the surface.

I am very sorry that you have such torment! Please don’t give up! It’s very wonderful that you have decided to seek some help. Do not give up! There are other people with big struggles too and you deserve to feel better. I hope you will do all the hard work that it can take to get to the place where you will be more at peace and with relief. You are worth getting better and I hope that God provides you a lot of help!

I have problems being positive as well. Put your creative mind to work, when you have some free time make a motivational board. You can make it any way that you see it would help you. Cut out pictures and positive affirmations from magazines or make a collage on your phone and put it in a place that you will see it everyday. Over time seeing all those positive words/ images itll be more enforced in your brain to think that way. Its helped me! Good luck!

Hmm...every day you feel anxiety at the same level of strength? I have my ups and downs..I would not say that it is consistent. On the days it gets a bit psychotic with anxiety I just rationalize it. I tell myself...this feels bad...it's temporary....it will pass. I turned robotic because I dealt with this crap my entire life. Nothing changes it...it still comes and goes. So all you do is accept it and acknowledge that all you need is time for it to lessen in intensity. Yep.. until it eventually starts to rise again. But that's life with our condition. I accept it as a chronic ailment that I don't have much control over. I sense my suffering, I don't deny it. Just ride out the agony. One moment at a time until it gets better.

It's so sad but my negative thoughts and anxiety make me want to have alcohol which was not typical for me in the past.
I don't understand - is it because my anxiety is worse that I am trying to numb
it !! Any suggestions would be helpful. Feel horrible about myself !!

You are definitely not alone!

You aren’t alone at all! My Less sever anxiety attacks used to stem from that same fear when i was younger. But you know what helps, it may seem childish, but cartoons. Not just any but the kind i watched as a child before i started all the worrying. It almost like my mind just goes to another place for a while .