I am a type of person who can help others but cant help myself in someways.When anxious I have emotions of anger,hurt and guilt. I previously did have anxiety but it seems like I did not fully deal with it. I have issues sleeping and I have moving pain throught my body , sometimes it feels like my body is boiling and sometimes feeling cold. The fear of death comes and then I am in a state of panic yet anxious. Until recently I have been reacting to it in my flight or fight state where it would lead me to pace walk for a bwt half hour to an hour. But recently I have found doing EFT tapping which has helped me. I still feel anxious but I dnt panic as of late. I have a stomach pain which feels like I have a knot in my stomach which sometimes is at the top of the stomach and them moves and clenches towards the bottom. My breating increases ever so slightly and then thoughts race forward.

I have been dealing with this for 7 years where it has been on and off. It occured due to 2 sudden grievences of close family members and the stress of the responsibilities I used to have. And that no one else was  willing to really help with the situation. 

From that instance I didnt know i had anxiety until I was explaining my symptoms to my parents and thereafter my father gave me an idea of what his friend went through and his friends reality became my reality due to the anxious thought process.

These superficial pains have stopped me to progress in life aswell has gave me great insight and pain . About the person I was and the person I am now. And even though I have worked on myself to be a better humam being I still have issues which trip me up.

Recently something from 7 years ago has been coming back to the fore front and then thoughts which makes dreams, hence the no sleeping.but the one thing i could seem to shake off is the feeling of dying and that makes me more anxious and then I start to panic and look for solutions online(Google will do more harm than good).

I have learnt how to deal with issues but then suddenly after awhile seem to forget how to overcome them and then new and old techniques have to be re learnt.

I have learnt and understood things through the usage of youtube videos which i have found helpful and other resources.My stomach at the moment is the main cause of anxiety and some guilt which has been attached to it. 

Due to anxiety my stomach acid has risen and I have due to all this anxiety created the GERD problem. That then created me to panic more as the gass started to travel and causing me to think i had a heart attack. And that was also one of triggers, my triggers are funerals, people dying and rain and people becoming sick or hospitals . These things cause me to panick and if one of them occurs I start my anxiety and fears and these things does not have to happen to people who are close to me to set off.

So this is what I have been going through....