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Hi....I feel you..iget the same way a lot.just try to focus on something like a flower or an animal or the birds outside, just enough to distract your thoughts. I learned this in therapy. You are not alone. If I was there I would give you a big hug. I saw a Ted talk about hugs, we need at least eight hugs a day to get our good feelings going. Try to hug some people today. I am thinking of you...this feeling of sadness won't stay with you...you are too special.

Hello....you are not alone I feel sad a lot too.
Get someone to hug you...anyone who knows how to hug.
Human touch is important. If I was there I would hug you.
God bless you too...

Thank you Annita. I know that these thoughts are not rational and are not my own. When I have "good days", I don't have these thoughts and feelings. But when I have the "bad days" my brain won't let me compute the good stuff. I just want to be able to get myself out of the funk so I can better handle it.

yea, my rational thoughts behave rationally. . .

where's the "off" switch for the irrational bs that keeps replaying and getting less rational with each spin of the not-so-merry-go-round. all to many of those irrational thoughts start with someone else's words and keep spinning until i am living my life to argue with people who are not even physically present.

i often wonder if irrational bs is contagious. . .

keep venting. . . getting those irrational thoughts into words often helps me disrupt the cycle.

I want to be better...i know they're not my "normal" thoughts and that I don't want them in my head. A family member keeps telling me to "think on the good things" when I start to feel like that but it upset me today because i'm TRYING to think on the good things. But when my brain is in that darker spot the good things are clouded. I can go over and over them but the intrusive thoughts bust through everything like The Noid (old advertisement reference). I don't want to start medication to handle the anxiety/thoughts because these came on quite suddenly and out of nowhere - definitely nothing like my regular situational anxiety - but how do I pull myself out of the funk when meditating, thinking of the good, and deep breathing don't work?

This too shall pass.

sometimes my mind can be very playful - like I have got so much creativity and playfulness inside that it all kind of turns in on me and it's upsetting. I can't change that about me - but some things that help me are that sometimes having something physical to do, like making the bed or washing the dishes or folding laundry, or taking out the trash, they help me just feel like I've accomplished something
and so my mood is not the thing that has conquered me. I also
know that doing an online meditation helps me too.
There ARE remedies out there that can help us! You've done
a really important one by reaching out here on this site!!! Yay You!! :)

I hope you can find some routines for yourself that provides a lot of predictability and calming comfort too, sometimes it's trial and error to find what helps you too.. Peace