So, I've had anxiety for
decades. I've fought through it unmedicated for most of it. The last couple years I've been off and on of a low dose lexapro. After a few months of not taking it my anxiety started to rear it's ugly head. It has a lot to do with my weight and cigarette use. I'm heavier and have been smoking for the last few months. My anxiety is in the form of heart issues. Granted heart disease doesn't run in my family and I have a very active job where I spend the majority of my day pushing a 300lbs+ handcart up and down a ramp for 10-12 hours a day.
I started back on my lexapro 4 days ago and am really struggling with increased anxiety during the break in period. I keep getting hot/cold flashes when I feel phantom pain in my arm that I am anticipating feeling. I'm scared to work cause I scared that I'll have a heart attack. I had a stress test done in the spring and they said I was fine but out of shape. The meds have their own side effects that are increasing the symptoms. Fatigue, yawning , stomach gas and burping. Increased sweating.
what sucks is it has caused me to go to the ER so many times that I feel like the boy who cries wolf. I've had multiple ekgs and three stress test over the last 5 years. But I can't kick this fear.
Just an update on how I'm doing. I just feel like a complete basket case. I'm not liking myself these days. I think its from past abandonment trauma and from my boyfriend cheating. Im just an insecure mess that needs constant validation from everyone. Im not liking myself so much lately and I constantly feel people are going to dislike me for complaining all the time. In general I worry...