Anxiety Support Group
Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...
I have had anxiety in the past and even took meds and have posted here before. I am also depressed and not on meds now. I lost my boyfriend over 7 years ago and people told me the sun would shine again but it hasn't. I am deeply in debt and can't get a decent job. The job I have is seasonal and they are actually cutting everyone's salary. People who have worked there for years will be making almost as little as new people. I am not used to women friends and I find all they want are favors or to talk non stop. I would rather read a book or listen to the tv. My only escape is sleep and even then my dresmas are full of anxiety. I've lost many people in my life and pets and I just can't see any good ever happening again. Even my veterinarian commited suicide. We would talk about our fears those few visits a year. I see people in my life and know they may be gone soon. I know a family of a dad and 2 daughters and they are all sick and when I see them I see ghosts. I know if I had more money that would help a lot but no one wants to hire me due to my spotty work record which is due to my depression and anxiety. I am scared not only of the future but of everyday things. I used to be smart but can't think any more. I pray and it helps but only for a while. Is being so scared normal or anxiety or both? What should I do?Thanks for listening.
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I did the dumbest thing today. I charged my earbuds, unplugged the block and put the block in my little bag instead of the earbuds. I wasn't happy about that when I got to the gym. What a dummy!
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Years ago, I won a mirrored armoire from my job. It's in my bedroom but I rarely stand in front of it. Yesterday, I had to have a dexascan done so I had to change into a gown. There was a full length mirror in the changing room. I'm aware that I gained 5 to 7 pounds over the last year from cheating on Keto but I didn't know what it looked like. It was a reality check.
Secondly you have to dig your way out of this pit. you have to dig your way out while you are in it. it's some kind of poetry that at your lowest time you have to show your greatest strength but it's true nevertheless. You have to change your spotty work history. Depression and anxiety now have to come last, not first. You have them when you have got home from work, not while you are at work. in practice this may involve a lot of excusing yourself to go to the bathroom to cry. Tell everyone you have irritable bowel syndrome.... ?
But you have to pull yourself through it because the way you are living hasn't worked for 7 yrs and I think that's enough time to be giving it.
If you want to die rich and surrounded by people who love you, and not under a rock alone in pain somewhere, then you have to start seeing your moods and feelings as a nice-to-have but not a need-to-have. A job is a need-to-have. A good one. A job you can save money on. And that is your top priority. So a work history that is clean is your top priority. So you have to do some night school, tighten your belt even more for the money for it, get qualifications, show up for work no matter if you want to slit your wrists, smile at the punters and do your best for them every day, and dig your way out of this.
You'll be glad you did. I'm glad I did. It's more worth it than I can say, and it gets easier and easier, and more and more rewarding. And when you're on top of your life you won't have the same anxiety levels. They say we lose 12% of our IQ when we are low income. I believe that. That's 12% of your CPU using up 12% of your ram freaking out about how to survive tomorrow.
You will be amazed that even though your brain is mush lately you can still study. That in fact will help your brain to come right. Anxiety and depression cause brain fog. It's really awful not being able to retain what you're being told - but get the antidepressants and the online book keeping course or whatever you choose - and do it.
It may have been worse had my boyfriend lived. He had his own money problems when the economy was even worse. I do idealize our relationship. At the time I didn't until several people told me right before he died how happy we were but I was blind to it. I think I will go back on the meds.
You are right Bridgie, a job will now be my priority. I have to stay at this awful one for now and I think I can't do it alone on the job hunt. I need a job counselor or some kind of agency to do it for me. I have tried on my own and it is not working. I am bright but not that bright but a good worker so I don't know how rich I would get but anything is better than an undependable job that cuts peoples salaries.
Its not just me but everyone I know has some kind of health or money problems or both. I am so very scared though. If only something good would happen to make up for the bad it would help.