Anxiety Support Group
Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...
Why fleeting? Because i don't trust my calm,soothed mind and body to remain in this state very long.
It is 7:16 AM and i have been awake since around 2:30 AM with my anxiety slowly spiking.BY around 5 AM it had spiked so bad that on a scale of 1-10 my anxiety was about a 50.So concious of my pounding heart,and,sadly. i know you all know how awful that is.
i took my morning meds (My regualr morning meds plus my prns) but it just seemed like my brain and body were just fighting them.i couldn't calm down and felt on the verge of a full blown panic attack.
i am under a whole lot of stress right now and i am having a really tough time living in the moment when it seems like my every moment is just paralyzing anxiety.And worry after worry after worry.Oh the worst case scenarios my head can come up with! Then my ocd takes over and puts my fears on a loop.Everything,everything seems out of my control.Am i just supposed to accept that? i so want to feel empowered in my life.Just,stronger and more resilient.Tough luck.
Well.i had a hot lavender and epsom salts bath,and then afterward i was able to do a little bit of box breathing and i guess my meds have kicked in.i feel better.
For Now.
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When i was in the ER February 16th 2025, i was being admitted to ICU where i was for 3 weeks, then had to relearn to walk for 3 weeks in another hospital rehab floor, the nurse told me something that made me feel for over 18 months now that i was finally *safe*. She told me that the guy who raped and beat me 21 years ago now almost 20 years at that time, was in prison as of a month before that...
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Sometimes, I think I have ODD. I can be oppositional. It seems that the only times that I feel like cleaning are when I should be doing something else or I have to go somewhere. Well, not everytime but most of the time. Yesterday, I was supposed to be doing online training for work but instead, I decided to work on my kitchen table. Most of the time, I don't know where to start and give...
While it may not works as fast as you want it to, it will work eventually.
Hard work pays off, sadly you just have to be patient.
Hope your calm lasts as long as you need it to today!!
Peace, hugs, and love to you!!!
But that is me and every healing journey is unique.
Continued support for your own healing journey, Silver.