So, my friend asked last may to post myself playing guitar....(i know this is irrational)  But, My friend, her brother has downsyndrome, and I keep thinking,  If I post....and she show's it to him it's gonna irritate him.

And with him  it's alway's been......i'm older then You I shold know more then You......And People do think ds people don't know what's going on, But, he does, and tryes to fool You.  He does know how to monipulate, like we all do,  So, when he does that, someoneone gives in,  And he shames You  (add's insult to injury......waves whatever it is in Your face....litterally)

And My mom asks the rhtorical  question  "can this have this thing that thing,  and I'll get the decisive "no shore"

I do know it's  a scare tactic,  and am happy to give,  But, how do I know I'm not being taken advantage of?

Also, I'm thinking people going ask me....what's that song is about, like I wrote that song,  And I don't like that.....I did tell my mother, that I wanted be a rock star when I first started playing guitar,  That was a mistake, I don''t want people to think, i'm something when i'm not...I should have just kept that to dream to myself

I do have more then one guitar......I think of myself of enthusiest, people do collect thing's......But, I don't have a whole fleet of them, that would be overdoiing it.

Sorry to rant like this,  (especially that  part about My friend's  brother that has downsyndrome)  I am a grown man,  and I know that was child-ish.....and was irrational....so, I'm sorry about that.