I know this might sound like some empty words, but think about things this way... If these events happened to someone else, you wouldn't blame that person. You have medical issues. That is not something you chose. You didn't wake up this morning and go "hmm... I think I'm going to be anxious, that I'm going to throw up, and that my brain will go a million miles an hour and make me miserable." We are often much harsher on ourselves than we are with others. Just remember, you can pull through this. These things that are happening (at least with the anxiety) can be resolved. And you do have a good support system here to help you when you need it

If you're still having symptoms - vomiting, fever, vision and speech problems - you need to go to urgent care right away. Those symptoms could be a sign of serious illness. Check into urgent care or the emergency room today.

Regarding the anxiety you're having: It's not your fault at all that these things are happening. You're not screwing up your life or ruining anything. Everybody gets really sick sometimes and millions of people suffer from anxiety. You're not alone.

Let your employer/school know that you're very ill and checking in to the ER. Ask the doctor that sees you for a doctor's note explaining your need to be absent from work/school. By law, you cannot be penalized for truly being ill and missing work.

Take care of your body and mind for the next few days. I know it can be stressful missing work and getting behind in school, but your health is more important than all that. The other stuff will work itself out.

Be kind to your mind and body today. Take a few deep breaths. Recognize the anxiety and set it aside until you take care of your body. When you get back from the doctor, surround yourself with things that are soothing - watch a fun movie, read a book, take a hot bath.

Don't worry about the anxiety today. You're going to be fine. Take care of yourself and good luck.

You haven't ruined anything--you are ill--your dr. wouldn't see you because you missed an appt.? seriously? worse dr. ever! sick people can have memory problems--and they didn't call to warn you--very unprofessional--very...so good riddance to them--of course you had to miss work and school--you are sick. whether it is mental or physical--you are ill and unable to do it---you have to take care of yourself right now--your health is THE most important thing in your life--and you are handling it--you made an appt with a new dr and psychiatrist--sounds like you mean business to me! don't beat yourself up--just be very kind to yourself and get healthy!

I can say this with positive knowledge, when you are dismissed from a doctor's office for "noncompliance"...it's on the doctor's office for not contacting you to work with you first.

Let the blame go. It changes nothing. Go on, do what you need to do to heal your self, and ask for reminder calls (some offices have a system that does these calls, so asking will get you some direction on this policy).

Best wishes.

Wow. That is a lot to handle. Plus, that's a long time to be sick. Maybe it was more than just the flu. It is a good thing you are going to the doctor. You need to go as soon as possible before things get any worse. It is also good that you're going to see you're psych. Maybe they can help with the anxiety.