I have a problem with always taking care of others and when because it is out of my reach, sometimes people get there feelings hurt or nature happends then thats when i cant handle it i tend to panic cry scream because i feel its all my fault i could have done something to make it better [even if i couldn't]. I have hardly ever asked for help [unless it looked liked they wanted to] till late january when i broke my leg then couldnt do anything [i got stuck in the middle of the kitchen standing there like an idiot holding two pices of bread one in each hand, thats when i lost it for good] i almost died after wards with in for days i hadent slept, gotten up, ate, gone to the bathroom sadly i stared smoking methanphedimen to get up [i quit but stared again for the same reasons], since then my panic atacks have gotten worse I started hyperventilating my vision has decreassed alot from lack of air. to make it worse the moment i stop stressing [i do it all day long] i start stressing then only time i feel stressless is if im helping someone elas thats paranoid or panicking