I originally posted this in a different support group, but that group doesn't get a lot of traffic and I figured my problem greatly affects me in terms of adding anxiety.
Hey, everyone, I'm an 18-year-old male currently standing at a whopping 5'4. (If I'm standing straight as a pole) I have lived my life always being the small guy, and I have to say it has really affected my mental state. I feel so inferior to people because physically I'm literally looked down upon. It makes me want to shut myself in and never come out. i always held out hope that I would grow since middle school. I dreamed of being 5'7, but unfortunately, that never happened. I feel really bad because I started weightlifting at like 12 (Not hardcore, but still), I started wrestling my 8th-grade year of middle school, and I started having sleeping problems my sophomore year of high school. I have this strong fear that I may have caused my current short height, and that thought really eats me up. I often pause what I'm doing throughout the day to ruminate over my height and how it affects how people look at me.
I tend to fall into some periods of really bad mood and insecurity. I even dislike being around my family, because my dad has a good 3 inches on me and that makes me wonder why I didn't grow to his size, It makes me feel robbed. I only stand over my mom by about 2-3 inches and that makes me extremely insecure. My brother is catching up and he's like 1-2 inches shorter than me. My height honestly makes me feel deformed and an automatic outcast. I try to keep up a positive attitude, but it's so hard when it's in front of my face every single day.
I understand there are people who are even shorter than me, and that I should be happy that I'm not any shorter, but that logical statement doesn't really resonate in my bones. My emotions overpower it and I end up feeling terrible. Maybe I'm just taking all my problems in life and attributing it to this one factor, I don't know. I accept that I'm probably not going to get any taller. All I want... is a little support.
I appreciate anything anybody has to say.
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