My name is Melissa and I want to be happy again.
I have suffered with depression and anxiety for my entire life. I have been in counseling for 14 years, been on many different types of medications, been hospitalized multiple times, and have been a part of many different groups for mental illness. I have come to terms with the fact that I will always suffer from depression and anxiety and that the symptoms can be controllable but they will never be cured.
I am very high functioning so I tend to be doing great, get overwhelmed, and shut down completely other than the things that absolutely need to get done (such as work). Well after being off of work on a medical leave for 3 months to deal with my mental illness, I have pretty much shut down again and I'm trying to get myself back to better functioning and control my symptoms. One of my goals was to join a support group, so here I am.
I know that coping skills are extremely important and I have some of them already. However, I feel like I take a coping skill and over-utilize it. Use it as an excuse to isolate. Lately it has been crocheting, knitting, and watching TV. I can do them for hours and they generally ease my anxiety, but it does not help my depression. My issue is either my anxiety is controlled and my depression is out of control or my depression is controlled and my anxiety is out of control. I am on medication for both. Does anyone have any suggestions for me to try that may help control the symptoms of both?
(Disclaimer: I have tried meditation but I have panic attacks.)
Thanks in advance!
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