with me I find almost every time one of those thoughts creeps in my mind something is troubling me in the real world. medication, being occupied, drugs, friends, family, doctors, counselors, church, media, they have all helped. in the last instanced if I must go to an ER or check myself in in a psychiatric hospital I would do so. but these are palliatives, remedies. they are not a cure. I am 61 had my first panic attack at 23. on and off was pretty much holding it steady then whole world changes and it all went nuts and we all know it is our perceptions but even though it is true we must find a way to control them we must also embrace them because even if they do go away (and we must do everything in our power to do away with them) they form a part of what we are, we are better able to understand others because of them. there is no formula, but there is a trail many of us walk every day at different paces trying to overcome all that tries to set us back we must endure because it is we, the broken, who have been called upon to fix this world

I read having anxiety will feel tired. I feel very tired.

Hi amarie!

It sounds like you are taking active steps in managing the anxiety! Having a counselor while beginning new medications will be helpful as you can have them as a source of support and also explore solutions that will be helpful for you!

I can relate to a lot of aspects of your experience! When I am having, or about to have, a panic attack, my thoughts are so irrational. But unfortunately it takes me spiraling into these thoughts aloud to realize how irrational they are. It's only when I come out of a panic attack that I realize that they aren't even accurate, like I don't feel or think them when I'm not having one. I also had a recent experience with my boyfriend, whom I have also been with for three years, where I shared all these 'panic thoughts' and I felt so guilty. The timing was horrible and what I said was not even representative of anything I truly feel. We had a 'reflection' the next day about it. It was helpful for me to be able to share and talk about it when I felt calm and 'in my right mind' and I think it helped him and myself better understand my anxiety.

This was my most recent interfering anxiety event and I am feeling so much better after it. I used it to motivate myself to make positive changes in my life that I know decrease my anxiety.
I too have gone through periods of time where I feel sooooo tired and I feel like I will never be normal or happy and those times always pass. I try to remind myself when I am 'in it' that, like I said, they always pass, so I know it will this time too! I am now trying to take an active role in helping myself through them when they happen. And it sounds like something you are doing right now too! With seeing a counselor and trying new medication! Thank you for sharing your experience! Keep us posted!

Make goals and really try and embrace yourself.. look at your positive aspects and surround yourself around people (even new friends) also if you ever have one of those moments take a moment, breathe (count to three if you must) and really just try and calm yourself ( anxiety gets to me too and with low self esteem it happens most times then not) Dude I even cry if one person says one bad thing to me and I say one bad thing back... I hate being mean to others. I completely understand you. And do not worry, after all of your hard work with your boyfriend I'm sure you will work it out, after all you have been together forever and well if he cant forgive you.. he was never yours to have in the first place. Hope this helps. Stay positive girlie!!

I am also glad you are seeing hep, takes guts. but they can't help you if you cant help yourself, I too have been in everyday slumps of worthlessness and I hate myself and after my recent breakup with my boyfriend I couldn't feel worse, but it helps if I surround myself with friends and fam who truly accept me for who I am.. Hugs!!!