There is nothing wrong with the way you feel . Even a person who does not suffer from anxiety goes thru this . I applaud you with being stronger than you may think . I don't know if I could have gone on with school , away from home with this condition. Please give yourself some slack and a HUGE pat on the back. You should be proud . I would say that the best thing for you is to be open and honest with your mom. Tell her what your going thru . Let it all OUT!! You have gone this far...with only this semestr left it will be over with soon...I hope that you feel better. Also, do you see a counselor or therapist? That may help you . I find that it helps me especially with things that I wouldn't normally speak to my friends about :)

Thanks AnxiousGal, I want to tell my mom I'm just nervous to do that. I feel like I'll be letting her down because I was feeling better from the bad episode of depression. So she things I'm happy and doing well. And im just scared to air that I'm not. And yes I do see a counselor and actually a couple days ago just finally opened up to her about feeling sad again. Thank you for the encouragement, I needed that.

Believe me I'm a mother of 3 kids. I have one in college as well . There is nothing more important to me than my childrens well being. I am sure that your mom will be worried BUT...it is important for you to get it off your chest . That could possibly be causing some of the anxiety as well. You are not letting her down . This is not something that you are asking to happen. I would bet my last dollar that she would be more upset that you kept it from her...Please keep a positive attitude . You are a beautiful person ...feel better...and finish college and make mama proud!

Thank you. I'm going to try and work up the courage to tell her. I need to do it. I just need to get myself past the fear. I'm really going to try.

Hey there,
I have SO been there. My last semester of junior year, I begged my parents to come and get me every single day, thinking there was no way I could survive without them. We made a deal, though: I had a month left in the semester, and if I couldn't do it, they would come and get me, and I'd finish my courses at the beginning of the next semester.
But this involved telling them (especially my mom) what was going on. I think that's the best next step for you. Someone needs to know the pain you're in--our support systems through family and close friends are the number one thing that can help us get through this. No need to go into detail. Just tell your mom that you're having issues, that you need her, and maybe make a deal that you talk on the phone once a day, or if you're close enough, visit once a week. You've got a month left to go, and with my whole heart I bet you can make it to graduation.
Dealing with moving from college to the "real, adult world" is incredibly difficult for almost everyone, and I bet you could find a ton of support among friends, colleagues, and even acquaintances who feel the same way. I would suggest going to your school's health services, or career center, and talking through these problems with them, because I'm sure they see a lot of people in your position and may have some great advice.
Love and light to you.

Thank you rosebud. Reading what you wrote in a way made me feel less alone in this and more like it is okay to feel like this. Thanks for the encouragement. And actually I do see a counselor in the health center regularly and she actually told me she would be way more concerned if I wasn't so worried about graduating. I know I can do it. I'll make it through. I've almost made it through fours years now so I can handle one more month.

I told my mom. I didn't exactly say that I was homesick, but I told her that I am feeling sad.

Very Good Mae . ..so How'd it go ? How do you feel ?

It was hard for me and I got upset and cried. In a way I guess I feel better that I'm not trying to hide it anymore.

Whenever, I'm in a situation like you have right now, I start praying and tell myself that everything will be fine. If you have friends you can talk to , it would help buffer your feelings. You probably don't want to worry your mom but sharing your feelings to others especially the ones close to you helps a lot.

If it making you feel so bad, you should find a school near home.

@etram Thanks, I am starting to be open about it a little. I didn't tell my mom tonight and I'm glad I did. I know ill be able to tell my friends when the time is right.

@peter I actually only go to school 45 minutes from home. So I do get to visit it's just the fact of being away. But I'll be done in a month and I know I can get through it.