Anxiety Support Group

Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...

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CL1
CL1

Hope everyone is having a wonderful day.  Haven’t posted in a long time.  My anxiety has been really bad lately. I have my first horse show this week that i am taking my handmade jewelry to.  I am not showing my horse he is not ready to go to the show.  There are some people there that dont like me and i dont want my creations not to sell.  Lately the crazy committee that meets in my head has been bad.  I mean really bad.  I tell them to stfu but they dont.  I have been beating myself for being more sad about not making our move then all the dearth’s in our family. Don’t get me wrong i miss my mother every day but there is a lot about her i dont miss.  Don’t miss the critersium i always got or how i was always doing things wrong.  She was very far from warm and fuzzy. There are more pictures of her horses and her dogs in her houses then her children.  I always felt I couldn’t do anything right.  


We were all set up to move to Texas the first of the year. I was so excited we had a great house we were buying and we both had jobs.  At heart i have always felt like a Texas girl.  When we came home my father n law died of a massive heart attack mom was diagnosed with stage 4 pancreatic cancer so all our dreams went down the drain. Well that is enough of my rambling.

arfie
arfie
Welcome back, CL. 2016/17 proved to be a 3 death year for my hubby and I. What a rude-assed way for the gods to laugh at my plans. . . Nearly 3 years later, we feel like we have processed the tremendous changes, but can't seem to remember exactly what plans were derailed by the chaos. Lucky for us, we are dreamers with more than enough creative power to create new ones.

Steadying support while you tackle your brave venture. My social anxiety wants signed affidavits from all attendees swearing they like me before I brave any new ventures, but my shrinks seem pretty unanimous that not even the most charming of social butterflies are liked by *everybody* and that shrugging off the folks who *don't* like you is a necessary social skill for all. May you end your brave venture with proof that you can master that social skill of thumbing your nose, when needed. Maybe a raspberry for the especially obnoxious haters?
CL1
CL1
Thank you so much for your wise words i will beat myself up worse then anyone will. I am feeling guilty for morning my devastated dreams more then the family loss. We were going to move to Texas we knew my parents would follow us. I just wanted a fresh start where no one knew us. I am excited about my new adventure with my jewelry. Dropped off my table today to display my things i will keep you updated on what happens. I really need to tell the community in my head to stfu that will help. I will work on my raspberries
arfie
arfie
A decade or three ago, against therapist advice, I started organizing the voices in my head into "puppet shows." I figured that if I can't shut off the noise, maybe I can at least cut down on the mob effect. It seems to be working. Every so often I can even scream, "QUIET ON THE SET" and achieve a moment of silence to pull my thoughts away from those puppet shows to the real world facts in front of me.

For what it's worth:
I'm trying to escape the Boom Star State (Texas). The collective effect of all these people trying to "start fresh" is? ? ? Boomy? ? ? Califony? ? ? Worth missing? Maybe just my gypsy puppet show. . . It is an amazing world we live in and my gypsy feets is itching. I've come to think of Texas as the world's biggest gypsy trap. My road friends tease that I was captured by a band of wild Texans. Too true. . . Been here over half of my silver streaked life and enough is enough. A wanderer must wander.
APOR2017
APOR2017
CL I am so sorry that you are dealing with such hurt and anxiety. I am a Texas girl myself. We moved away but came back as soon as we could. I think it's pretty amazing that you are a vendor at a horse show. Id love to see your products! I was struggling with others that do not like me either and it is tough to fight those thoughts but definitely worth it when you get passed it. I finally realized I was created with a purpose and that not everyone is going to like me and that usually means I am doing something right. I try my hardest to stay kind and act in love regardless of what others think or say. I pray for the same peace for you too. Big hugs!!
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