Welcome to the board, tryingtosmile,

What has been going on?

We're here... listening...

So many things, where to start. First off, thank you for replying and caring.

I lost three of my sisters in a span of one year. One had Covid, the other had a heart attack and the other had leukaemia. It’s all been such a heartbreaking time. Then I got divorced and it’s been loss after loss.

I'm sorry you have experienced so much loss. And in such a short amount of time.

Have you considered a grief group, or get some grief therapy?

This is a huge loss. There are many good grief groups or if you feel stuck or frozen, a good licensed clinical therapist who knows grief and loss could really help. This is a very tough situation for anyone to work through. Be good to yourself, too. Welcome to this forum!

Good for you for pushing yourself to do things. You are empowering yourself. We go through these tough times as best we can, you're not alone. Many of us suffer from anxiety. We do the best we can, but we also don't have to do it alone. There are resources out there, online support, therapists, doctors, help lines to call. It's not weakness to reach out. It takes strength to realize you might need help and look for it. Wishing you the best.

I feel you. I’m having the same feeling of disconnect from myself and a large bunch of my extended family. I’m trying to break out of the self isolation, working and staying home all the time. I’m seeing a DBT therapist and it’s helping. I’ve just started journaling here tonight, her suggestion, and I’m hoping that helps..I hope you look around and see what might be available to help you break out of the darkness. Sending good vibes your way.

Just stop and sit. Sit and sense this... here now. this silence wash over you.... rest your head here upon this place. Nothing is needed just letting go into this... here that has been there all along waiting resting ... this stillness is... just this... here...

life is this too... but for now.. a resting into and as this... is all that is needed.

Appreciate all the feedback and support. It has and still is a really rough patch in my journey and realizing that my gf was just using me for her own benefits. We are broke up now. I need to be alone and heal, rest and let this all wash off me so I can love me again ♥️

Hi trying to smile your not alone. I too have had lot of terrible things all happen in the span of months. First i had a break up. Then a nervous breakdown and stay in the hospital. Then an infestation of mold and bugs in my apartment. My anxiety has reignited alcoholic tendencies i had. Then two days ago i was fired from my job for missing too many days. I also have a bad back injury that has flared up so im in constant pain. Im on the verge of falling apart as we speak. I have no friends and am terribly alone. Then my therapist stopped returning my calls. Im afraid ive hit the lowest and will be permanently crazy and homeless now. If you need someone to talk too.