Hi, my name is Marti and I'm 51, and my Dad and his sister were both bi-polar.
Skipping over my past,etc., I wake up and have to take 10mg of valium first thing every day. My marriage isn't good right now, (thank God we don't have kids!!) But, I find it hard to get motivated, I just want the Lord to bring me home, and I know how you feel!!If it weren't for my meds, and my counselor, I would be in deep doo doo!!

i take clonazepam every morning..it dosnt seem to work anymore, and i cant let myself take a higher dose cos i kno i'll be in a world of crap coming off it! which i'll have to do if i want kids...

its like every second is a struggle...i used to love waking up and looking forward to the day :(

vix, your life sounds like it is way out of whack. home is supposed to be nurturing and safe and reasonable. work is supposed to be fun and a rewarding contribution to society. we are supposed to keep our minds and bodies healthy.

take a good, honest look at your life. add positives to it until it really feels well-rounded and wholesome again.

There are days when I feel that way too. and its really hard to get myself out of the bed, some days, not often, but some days, I dontget out of bed.. and of course later I feel worse for not doing so.
but.. I have found that when I feel like this, I try to make myself get up, really make myself, and then later I reward myself with some thing.. I am trying this new thing- face the fear...... taking my life back, one panic attack, or night, at a time. I am also taking Vitamin B complex- which I think is helping a little, I was stuck in a rut about 3 weeks ago, I have noticed that my anxiety flares tremendoulsy when its getting close to that time of the month(probably hormone related), but anyway,I was stuck in a rut about 3 weeks ago, and was desperate, I even tried the Apple Cidar Vinegar thing, yuck, and no it didnt help, it gave me anxiety worse, and for days I had that metal battery taste in my mouth.. anyway, the vitamin B complex pulled me out of the rut. Im waiting now to see if its really going to change anything. I also looked up online ways to tell if you have a vitamin defiency, and with all my symptoms, including anxiety, on a scale of 1 to 10, 10 being the worst, it gave me a 10 for Vitamin B complex.. imagine that. Im thinking of taking L-Theanine on top of that, but Im scared to try stuff while I take xanax... Hope you feel better soon.

Marti,
I will pray for you. I don't know if you have ever heard of Joyce Meyers she has a book called Battlefield of the Mind It can help you out alot along with reading daily sciptures dealing with fear and anxiety and worry that is what has seen me through each day. I did not want to go on meds so I began praying and reading the bible to help me with my anxiety/panic attacks god is great source of strenght to me and i would encourage you to read the book of psalms when you feeling like you don't want to get up. God Bless You:)

I went from being housebound to being a thriving member of society it takes work, do some 1 on 1 therapy and find out why you are anxious and tense, mine was form childhood trauma, so I dealt with that and it was gone finally (the anxiety) now mine is from chemo for a liver disease. You can recover from anxiety.

I have the same feeling. Mornings are tough for me and I often wake up early and the anxiety sets in before I can even get out of bed, what a way to start your day. I started taking medication a few wks ago and it is finally getting under control. Good luck!

Im new here just joined a few min ago.I have this every morning didnt know why or what was going on till now. Was just thinking about going to bed and i said to myself,"Oh god but then you have to wake up in the morning"Its the worse feeling ok ill stop....

Hi! I've been waking up that same way too lately. I had a few monthes like that a couple of years ago but it does fade. It may be the first thing on your mind when you wake up but you'll see that in time it will be the first thing on your mind 2 minutes after you wake up...then 10 then 20 then you won't even think about it every day. it just takes a while for your body to re set itself I guess. I feel the effects of anxiety on my body for a while after an anxious period. It will pass.

YES, YES, YES. This is pretty much my only complaint about anxiety. It sets in the second I wake up and is there through most of the day. I've gone through months of this everyday, then it goes away. Right now I'm in it again. Every morning is the same...I wake up shaking, nervous, and it stays all day. I don't have attacks, just that constant feeling. I'm just wondering when it will all go away again. I feel for you because I know how it feels NOT to have this.

I understand this problem and I have been there myself. I sometimes find when things are not going my way that I get the opposite too. I just want to sleep and sleep, i'm tired of being awake feeling all anxious and crummy and I just can't. I get almost afraid to go to sleep. Anyone experience that?

hey..

yea me too hun, i called this 'dread waking up' but also i dread going to sleep as you do, cos i know how i'll feel wen i do have to wake up!

vicious circle...

i wish i could sleep though, but once i'm awake i feel so uncomfortable an crap i have to get up and then am tired..which adds to feeling crap, great eh?!!

hope you all managed to have some good times this christmas and didnt feel too bad...best wishes to all....xxxx

I've been going through anxiety since my son died, back in Apr,15,2006,he was 18, I know anxiety is worrying about the future,and having no control over it,I couldn't get out of bed for about a year. I do Know what helps, when your spiritally fit, which means, when you first wake up, say please God,help me get up and do the next right thing, its a moment to moment thing at first, each day do the same thing for twenty-one days, which creates a good habit, now if your spiritually fit, mentally and phsycially,you will straighten out, trust me I did this for 3 yrs before my son died, and it worked, but now I know I have to start over, and do that again. I hope this helps...XOXO Kelly

The same thing happens to me,but I noticed that if I get up and just pay attention to how I am feeling,it helps.I notice the anxiety and if I am sad and I sit and try to calm myself for a bit.Then I take my morning meds.Sometimes I think the medicine the night before or in the morning can cause some anxiety.Maybe you could check with your dr. to see.I took Seroquel at night and woke up feeling like I had a hangover.We had to cut the prescription in half.

it sounds to me like your life is very demanding on you physically and that may be causing you to dread your days.

my mother used to start her days with a cup of coffee at the kitchen table. she would write out a list of things to do, prioritize them, then do them one at a time.

hope this helps.