I also have anxiety and BP.
I don't assume everyone has it all together. I certainly don't. We're all going through different battles.

I'm sorry you feel as if you can't breathe and feel alone at times. I know how that feels. I have had minutes where I have thought I'm not going to make it. (Suicide survivor).

I hope you can find one minute of peace to breathe soon. Just know you are not alone. You can fight through this!

This may sound kind of funny but I think that the fact that I have dogs, who just give me such unconditional love, and who know that I adore them is what keeps me hanging on the most. I guess it's hard not to make assumptions because people don't slow down for 2 seconds to ever ask me if I'm okay. I'm usually the one who takes care of everybody else. Sometimes it would just be nice to be asked, hey are you okay?... but thank you so much for the encouragement. I too am a suicide survivor. More power to you. xx

I love my dog as well and thanks for the comments.
I just wanted you know that I see/hear you.

Thank you for that. Out of curiosity, what kind of dogs do you have? Mine are my Saving Grace. I adore them and love them so much

I will feel something only if they are sexy. Otherwise, I will feel bored and, depress. I heard many memebers here feel the same way as you.

I've heard people say similar things. The best way I can describe it lately is that when I was younger, I used to feel the peaks and valleys. Sometimes really so happy I was giddy and other times really, really low. These days I feel like I get the occasional valley, none of the peaks, and most of the time cruise right in the middle. Almost a little bit numb if that makes any sense.

Hi. I can totally relate to what you are saying. I lost one of my dogs that was a part of a recent melt down. I was in the direction it was the straw that broke the camels back. I do similar to the same I work all day everybody thinks I'm happy find that come home to justbmy pets and the only reason I'm still here is because of them. Right now I reminder self every day that they need my unconditional love and a home. That is what keep me here.

I agree. I had that kind of a day today and my only saving grace was knowing that I was going home to my dogs and that the sunshine is out. It's little things like that that mean the world to me. I guess on top of it I just don't feel like anybody at my job cares about me. They're just not those kinds of people and I think I'm comparing a little bit to previous jobs I've had where people have been kinder to each other. Thank you for your support and hug those doggies.

I am sorry that you feel so alone. I think that most people think that if you look fine that your are fine. People get so involved with their own lives that they often overlook and don't consider that someone who appears to be altogether could be lonely or have problems. To help you make new friends maybe you could take some kind of class such as an art class, painting class, chalk painting class, a cooking class, etc. I once worked at a place much like the place you are working. The people didn't try to get to know me. It made me feel very uncomfortable. I had previously worked at a place where everyone in the office became very close friends and we always talked and had a good time while working. If you are not seeing a therapist, you might want to consider it. I hope things improve for you.

Best not to quantify your joys I don't think. To me not being dead is a good day. If Others looked at my life they would find it incredibly empty and I have been very lonely. But I don't consider it the end of the story. Just some shitty chapter. Maybe somewhere around chapter ten.

The most miserable people around here, are those who stack their life up and see a big picture. I think that's because they're in a negative state of mind when they do it, so they concertina all the horrid together and fail to see any joy.

The happiest people on here live their life now, today. Each minute is filled with "what I am doing now". There's a word for it, mindfulness. I think I discovered mindfulness on my own, I think a lot of people have, but you can read about it nowadays from books and the internet.

Mindfulness is about living here, now. It's manna from heaven. Look after today. Let tomorrow be itself.

In the last few years whenever I have thought 'this is my life now' some small, unexpected shift will take place that will open the vista right out, and that I never saw coming.

So live in the moment, and don't miss those opportunities. They're just little glimmering opportunities. You have to be alive to them to even see them.

I feel alone all the time. I have a beautiful family. Loving husband and 3 adorable kids...but I have this constant fear that something wrong will happen to me and I will leave my kids...I am currently having pins and needles in my left foot and ringing in my ear. And that skyrockets my anxiety...someone help please

I have been apart of this support group for a few weeks now, and I have read a lot of posts but I think this might be the first one I really am able to identify with. Life just seems so lonely most of the time and it's ironic because I am currently studying a profession that works with helping people out of their ruts in life. I like to act like I have it all together, and I do a pretty good job of putting on a show. But for the most part I really don't have it as together as I would like to think I do. My mind is racing all the time and my I also feel like I am suffocating most of the time. Breathing techniques have been a lifesaver to me. Just taking a few minutes out of my day to get in control of my breaths and focusing on my heart beat helps a lot. Also exercise has been so helpful to me, as it lets me release a lot of my angst. And try to remember too, even in our loneliest moments, we usually aren't. There is someone there whether it's family, friends, peers, or even the people on this site, there is always someone there to talk. Best of luck to you.

Totally get it. Feeling like no one really knows enough to care can really drive you down into a deep rut. But we know, and we care, and you don't have to go to that dark place, or at least not by yourself. Prayers to you! <3