I have had an awful day too. Are you still online? The fear, anger, loneliness is too much to bear.

Frogsoup - I hope your stomach is better now and so are your body aches. Hope you can get a good sleep tonight.

To kalua, I am here. I'm not online for long but I will try to check again tonight if you'd like to leave another comment. And lavenderC thank you very much. I'm still not feeling well but I'm also hoping I get some rest, I could use it.

Kalua, so sorry for another bad day. You really need to find someone who will help you with fear, anger, and aches.

Maybe go to DS groups who can help you.

Breathing with you, Frogsoup. These be anxiousy times for all. Repressed energies are running so high that it doesn't take much to set off a turbo-charged chain reaction even less predictable than Coronaville's marshal laws.

For what it's worth
I keep a supply of restful activities on hand for my sleepless nights. Puzzle books, sketch pad, coloring books, craft projects, etc. Stretching exercises help me loosen the stress knots and channel emotions far enough to allow restorative rest. Some nights restful activities are more restorative than sleeping with restless dreams.

Breathing with you, Frog. . . Just breathe. . .

Thanks arfie. I've been trying to relax myself and be calm through everything so hopefully I can get some sleep soon . Just hoping tomorrow brings something good or exciting. I think the boringness is another reason my brain is out of control. But if it is night where you live I hope you have a good night's rest.

There are many varied groups to join on this forum and this one seems best suited because I carry this weight constantly. It is definitely due to circumstances in my life that I have to take responsibility for and at the same time, I have to also live my life and not get weighted down by guilt. I am good, I try every day, I do make a difference in the world with my efforts, but I have had a great deal of turmoil in my past that is now surfacing in my eldest daughter, who will not speak to me and blames me for her current state of distress. It's a lot. I continue to be kind and open in my heart (we don't speak but in my own mind and when I speak of "it" to others that I am close to). I am hoping that the kindness and positive heart will lead me to good reactions around me. My husband tells me to stick up for myself but that doesn't mean with anger or resentment...just in general. I am tired of fighting this battle. I want to enjoy my life every day and this is my goal when I wake up all through the day...conscious effort to see joy and to be okay. it is WORK and doesn't come naturally, which is a shame...but when you are turned against, your trust and reality of safety is destroyed. I have much to be thankful for but I have a huge void in my life right now. I have to find a way. I bought The Power of Now on audio and listen to it in the car and when I take my walks and when I sit outside in the afternoon with my dog. His ideas are very dense and you have to listen to it over and over and over again until bits of it seep in or make sense....it is making so much sense and helping me tremendously. I am having enlightening moments, bits of clarity lately...today mostly. Seeing myself in a different perspective, outside of my self....and it is making me understand the reactions I am getting from others a little more....and that information is something I am considering.....wanting to change a bit because I want to be my best self for those I love...and for my own happiness. I don't know if this makes any sense at all...but I am working on it. :)

Frog soup, I am sorry that you are suffering. I hope you can find a way to calm your anxiety. I know sometimes it seems like nothing works, but never give up, ok? Hang in there.

I know how bad days can affect us. I am still feeling really anxious and depressed from several days ago when I lost 2 friends to COVID and one of my best friends called the same day and was diagnosed with cancer along with legal stuff I am going through. The day was so overwhelming, but the groups here on DS were really supportive and helped me through it. Sending you support and lots of hugs.

Thank both of you for the kind words. I'm sorry you guys are also going through a hard time but I hope you find a way out of it. (Sorry for a short response tonight is also pretty hard but the support I get here is always helpful with getting through it)