i do but no black ring. everything gets blury and realy intense then blackout. few times i blacked out i went to far and went to juvy cuz it. other times i dont member anything. when i feel angers geting to much i si. nothing else works so yea i look like a wuss to usuly

I saw that kind of thing happen to my mom in recent months. Turned out she was in adrenal crisis from being taken off a steroid too fast. You could get your cortisol levels checked just to see if that may be a part of the issue.

I find this subject very interesting... The first time I had a blackout was more than 28 years ago. The second time was 15 years ago; that one lasted for several days and I still do not remember all the damage that I did. If friends would not have physically shown me the evidence than I would be walking in an oblivious state. that being said i had several anger bursts after with similar results. I began to soul search, trying to understand what was wrong with me. I believe all of us have, and that's when I begin to realize my trigger was trauma. Typically this is the case but it usually goes deeper than that. It appears that everyone who experiences these unexplained, undiagnosable blackouts all have one thing in common, they usually start at a young age. I am sure most of you just like me, have been to random psych professionals who just give some blah blah blah speech, but do not really tap into you and give you a solution or true remedy. This in itself could probably boil your blood. Unfortunately in my opinion, the society we all coexist in overlooks one of the most important aspects: confrontation is not a bad thing and is necessary. The unfortunate thing for me, like most of you guys initially I would avoid confrontation, but then it clicked and I realized I am the catalyst not the victim. I learned some of the best ways to release my anger were to write whatever I was feeling good or bad in a journal daily, exercise regularly, and channel the negative energy into a piece of art until calm. The thing that is really critical about the journal is you get yourself into the habit of trusting yourself. This is so important because your accountability is to your heart and ego. My outcomes were not always favorable, but my rage became victory and suppressed tremendously for years. I have led a fairly peaceful life until two weeks ago. It happened again...my girlfriend and I had a argument, without going into too much detail the result was me getting out of the car walking several miles, a man put his hands around my neck and in self defense I tripped him to the ground and slammed his head into the concrete. This upset me so much that I began to cry and blacked out. Within an hour of the first assault two guys approached me and began to make fun of me crying. Afraid, confused, and angry, I broke one of the guy's jaws and arm. in the interim my girlfriend was calling me on my cell phone demanding to know where I was. The only problem is I did not know where I was and could not answer her. This awful scenario dominoed into hurting loved ones by things I said and did. Now my girlfriend is afraid of me, doesn't completely trust me and had I not varied from my accountability routine to myself I would not have felt like I was going to be abandoned, which was the deeper problematic issue. Moral of the story be accountable to yourselves don't keep things bottled up and learn to forgive and love yourselves before loved ones get hurt

I tried the journal and the writing thing. I made the mistake of showing them to my shrink and ended up in the psyche ward for a while. Taught me not to let others know too much of what is going on inside.

I haven't had a problem for quite a while now, but that is because I am free to "run". When things get tense I leave. It is only when I am backed into a corner and cannot escape that things go bad.

As for Christianity, well god hasn't done much for me in the past and I don't see he/she/it doing much in the future. Trust me I would love to find a god that was worthy of worship but have not found one yet.

i have been through alot in my life such as constantly bein picked on and bullied and bein abused by my moms ex husband and i managed to be a sweet man wit a good heart but all that bein bottled up combined wit more situations lately has pushed me past my limits and beyond and i have an uncontrollable rage and blackout anger...about a week ago a random guy was jus pickin at me non stop and i blacked out and when i came to i was lookin at a man layin on tha ground with a bloody face and my knuckles bleeding and hand in alot of pain....another incident which happened today my lil brother came at me and tried to hit me and i blacked out and when my mom came in and snapped me out of it i had him by tha throat and i choke slammed him on the ground...im tryin to find techniques to help me control this or somethin because i dont like hurtin people especially my family...i was offered to be taught muay thai and that has been a dream of mine to learn martial arts for tha self discipline...but im also scared it wont work and i will use tha muay thai to hurt people in my blind rage any advice?

This has happend to me all to many times. I also have a habit of running away. Seeing things that arn't there.
it really gets me down because in general i'm not a violent person, with some drinks, i used to handle it brilliantly, but it seems whenever i down something i black out instantly and become this whole other person.

But when i wake up, i'm in shock because i'm wondering what the hell i'm doing.

I remember 'waking up' one time, i had blood all over the floor and walls and doors and all over my leg, i slashed my leg whilst i was blank and now i have 4 deep scars. I also ran away that night and usually these blackouts come after arguments and him storming off.

Me and my sister came to a conclusion - the boyfriend i had at the time, he was emotionally and physically abusive and we thought thats whats triggering the blackouts with violent/dangerous behaviour, since i broke up with him, they seemed to have settled. It's only happend once, since.

I have been to councelling, psycologists and alchol addiction workers. I was diagnosed with Bi-polar and borderline personality disorder. With a mild touch of schitzophrenia.

I'm currently working on controlling, my method which seems to be working so far is when you feel your blood boiling, breath in and out slowly and count to ten. It usually works.

I hope you get this sorted out soon ::) x
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I've never blacked out, but I have gotten soooooo mad that I literally can't see. It's like I'm moving in some sort of time warp and everything is blurry and fuzzy and moving. I close my eyes and lash out at any and everything and any and everybody in my immediate surroundings, screaming at the top of my lungs as I go. When I do that, I'm so out of control that I can't stop. It scares me to death. I have to finish my little rage tantrum, before I can go any further. Otherwise, the rage will linger around and the very next little thing that ticks me off, will send me right back into the rage tantrum.


I've never hurt anybody, but I don't want to, either. And that's what scares me more than anything. I'm out of control and have no idea of how to control myself.

I've had this same blackout effect in my life as well. Once when being chased on a playground i blacked out and when i came too the kid that was chasing me was knocked out on the playground. The kids that saw it said i round housed kicked the kid in the head. I dont remember doing that. I've done things like that since and in retrospect it only happens to me when, like you said, you feel trapped or in danger. That's when it happens to me. I'm not a doctor, but i feel like i know why i do this at least. I've met a few others who do this and all have had one thing in common... these are genuinly really good people. Ever since i can remember i have prided myself on choosing to do the right thing because of the way if makes me feel, but i always carry this ball of intense rage with me that i know is there but i'm in good spirits most of the time. I am capable of hurting people, but i would never consciencely hurt anyone. I remember many times i defended myself in fights and when i had the chance to strike, an intense feeling of "i don't want to hurt anyone" comes over me and i never take advantage of advantageous situations. The only time i hurt people is when i have no other choice but to fight and then i don't remember what happened, followed by shaking and crying that i can't help caused by immediate remorse. I think my problem is that my conscience self not only doens't want to hurt, but will not. When i am forced to defend myself my subconsience does what's necessary to survive. I beleive everyone has the tendency to do this as long as they have no intentions of domination or hurting people, mixed with an inner hatred of how life is or how the world seems so evil and unfair, that come out when we're put into situations that we can't handle. I look at this as a strength, but then i also don't attack those that i love, or at least haven't yet. I think that doing our best to stay out of these situations is the only way to stop it, and if we convey to someone who is putting us in a situation to loose control and the person doesn't respect that enough to stop, then i can't be too sorry for them, but i guarantee that if it happens again they will be more apt to listen next time.

Someone said something about blood rushing to your head when your angery, that's on the right line of thinking. Human beings if pushed to far have a hardwired system in them brain that takes over, it's for defense. It's called the fight or flight response, and it works like this. Your brain sences danger, true danger, it raise your adrenlin levels, blood is derved from the gi track to the muscles, also the part of your brain that controls your higher reasoning center shuts down. At that point the brain only understand 2 things, fightback, or run away. It's different for everyone some ppl run but in your case you fight back, and the reason why you don't remember it is because that part of your brain that controls your memory is shut off.

During a dream about an argument with a bus driver, I got so angry at him and was so worked up that my heart was pounding and palpitating and I had to calm down---only because I was afraid that if I didn't, I was going to have a heart attack.

Yes, I did come pretty close to fainting.

B.

Its weird because when you say the word "black out" it sounds really fictional and melow dramatic but they are very real and when it happens to me its really scary. Its like an out-of-body experience... I never know what im going to do or say when I get that angry....ive thrown things....broken things....said horrible things to strangers and the people I love and the weirdest thing is that normally I am a very nice and soft spoken person normally. but that angry sid of me I just cannot control sometimes!

iv got a very similar issue. just as you said you black out when you get pissed off, i do too. but i have to be EXTREMELY angry. so angry infact that its only happend about 5 or 6 times in my life. only in situations which were very frustration and required me to do more all i could, or when i couldnt do anything. i guess what somebody would call a 'life or death situation'. im not VERY afraid of it happening, because its VERY hard to make anyone that angry. i would assume its the anger point PAST what most people would view as full anger. kind of like my hulk. i know how it feels being afraid of what you could possibly do and not even be aware of it. im also lookin for a solution. or atleast a name for this sort of condition, besides the hulk.

My husband used to black out in a rage...It was really really bad. He wouldn't remember HOURS of time. In his case - it ended up being a medical problem that progressed over years and took a couple of years to figure out with MRI's / Neurologists / etc. Ended up having surgery to remove blocked passages in his sinus cavity and something with his ears. It made all the differnce. He still has to go in once a year for check ups and it's been 10 years about since the surgery and he may have to have another as the symptoms have returned. Maybe get checked out and make sure it's not a medical issue rather than anger causing the black outs. Sorry your going through this.

I've never blacked out, but I do get really furious to the point that it scares me. Because if someone is near me or in my line of rage, I'm scared that I could lash out to the point that I could hurt someone. I don't know what to do about my anger. But I guess the first step is admitting that I am an angry person and I guess just go from there.

I blackout when angered. The last time I did it, I managed to do $4500 worth of damage and couldn't remember any of it. I'm glad my kids weren't home. I woke up in the hospital with my neighbor standing over me. The doctor said I had been there for about an hour. Until then I thought blackouts were only a few minutes. Now I try to listen to music to ease my mind. It doesn't always work, but it's a suggestion.