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Anyone Blackout from anger?

Gomezy3k
Gomezy3k
I have blackouts when I get severely angry and when I come to, what I find is usually not good.

The first time it happened, I was 14 and I was working with my father doing some chores. He started in on me, about how I was lazy, how I couldn't do anything right, and just kept verbally pushing and picking. I started feeling like I was looking down a black tunnel, it kept getting longer and longer until it went totally black. When I came to, I was on the ground and my father was sitting on me taking a knife out of my hand. I had tried to kill him with it.

Later there were occurrences where I was trying to get animals to go into a corral or do something and they wouldn't and the frustration kept building and the tunnel started and I blacked out, when I came to, I was beating the snot out of the cow or whatever animal with a club.

I have been deathly afraid of losing my temper and will do anything to keep from getting angry. I can tell when it is happening because the tunnel vision starts and if I can escape and get away, it goes away, It is when I am backed into a corner and I cannot get away that bad things happen.

So far I have been lucky and have not hurt anyone since my childhood, only because I do not fight or argue with anyone. People think I am a wuss because I will not fight back, but I am afraid of killing someone so to save them I avoid confrontation.
Gomezy3k
Gomezy3k
I forgot to add, I ahve only met a couple of others who had this same issue. None of us know what to do about it, or how to stop it. I have been in Anger Management Groups and PTSD groups, and in therapy. The shrinks and therapists all seem to ignore the blackouts when I tell them about it.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I've had a few occasions in my life where I got really pissed off, and people tell me I did things that I have no recollection of doing. I've never had the tunnel vision though.
Gomezy3k
Gomezy3k
For me, the rage starts building and then its like a black ring in my vision and the longer the "problem" goes on, the further the black ring extends like looking through a dark tunnel which the point of light gets further and further away and when it goes out and all goes black, that is when bad things happen.

I am reminded of the words of David Banner, "Don't make me angry. You wouldn't like me when I'm angry>"
deleted_user
deleted_user
I think many people experience this phenomena to some degree. I think I heard that it is due to the blood rushing through your body, in conjunction with adrenaline. It is also a way for your brain to try and cope with a very powerful situation....like a flight or flight response. I have not heard of any way to control except through controlling your anger. I was able to control my anger only after some quality [url=http://www.angermanagement.net/]anger management classes[/url]
deleted_user
deleted_user
I have a few times. The last time it happened I supposedly got into a big fist fight with two men I never met before in my life. They attacked me because I attacked one of their freinds. I attacked their friend because he was beating the snot out of my friend.

All I remember is seeing the guy hitting my friend, that's it. Several people told me I went completely nuts on every person in sight. I am glad that there weren't any weapons nearby.

Other than that I can only remember one other occurence. During that blackout I told a man I was going to kill him. His girlfriend was crying. My friend who was there told me it kind of scared him. I do not like it when this happens. It really scares me because I honestly do not have control. Like you, I avoid confrontation as much as possible because I do not want to hurt anyone. But when it finds me I lose control. I haven't blacked out in a few years, I keep myself out of situations that may cause it.
Gomezy3k
Gomezy3k
Yeah for sure. I have even let people walk all over me, rather than stand up to them because I am afraid it will lead to a confrontation and someone will die. I will do anything to avoid an arguement, fight or disagreement. I have even left my house, just walked off and left it because I did not want to fight over it with an ex-girlfriend (she got me to put her on the deed and when we broke up, rather than try and fight for it I just gave it to her.) I left everything I owned there and walked away just so I would not have to fight over stuff.
deleted_user
deleted_user
It sounds like you may have a Disoiative Identy Disorder. This used to be called a split personality. When your father verbally abused, you developed a seperate idenity because your were not able to handle the abuse. The new idenity was stronger and could handle it. Look that up and see if it helps. I know that there are blackouts, and you can't remember what the 2nd idenity did. Hope this helps.
deleted_user
deleted_user
in moments of rage, I would ocassionally black out - after a rage incident, i was exhausted like for 4-5 days until i regrouped - I've haven't raged in several years, but a couple of years ago I also attended 9 months of anger management classes and spirituality classes, did a lot of reading on anger issues, control issues, changing my mind and how i think - spirituality and having a relationship with God, not just believing has turned my anger world into a peaceful one.
Gomezy3k
Gomezy3k
I remember one time, back when I was religious, I was raised as Mormon (I am a Born Again Pagan now), and was sent on a mission by my mother (dad just went along with what she decided). One of the District Leaders was getting in my face because I was not learning scriptures and the discussions fast enough. I could feel myself going and the only thing that saved the situation was when my companion grabbed my arm and pulled me away and told everyone to just cool off. I had almost reached the blackout point. When he difused the sitution the black went away almost immediately and I was able to calm down. Not sure how he knew I was going to attack but he saved some serious problems from happening. I am afraid god is not much help as far as I am concerned. I have also taken a number of Anger Management classes and they did little to help. According to them one can stop the anger. In some cases yes, when I can escape, but if I am cornered and cannot get away then I black out, or if caught off guard where I am surprised, the anger is instant and there is no stopping. One reason I do not like to be around people.

I am in a constant "On Guard" mode.
Gomezy3k
Gomezy3k
LOL I keep remembering incidents. I remember one time as a teen, I was walking through the kitchen and my mother used the dish towel to flick my rear, forget why, without thinking I was instantly in a rage and swung and hit her. I had been in a perfectly fine mood the instant before. Man I caught heck for that one. I have done this several times, reacted without even thinking about what I was doing. Not a good thing.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Well Mormons are not Christians - they are Mormons. I am sorry to hear you have such a hard time - Christianity does teach about true forgiveness of others adn ourselves. Anger Management helps teach things as tools and recoginition of situations. No matter all the shrinks and therapists you see, unless you feel pain, deal with the pain and learn the art of forgiveness anger will control your life.

Hugs, peace and blessings to you.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I did once. I was being beaten by two other girls and everybody was watching. They told me that when i fell to the ground i started to laugh constantly and then they say i got up and started biting and punching them. But the only thing i remember was waking up lying in the middle of the school yard and two beaten girls in front of me.
deleted_user
deleted_user
nope. never. i have a keen sense of control. would drive me insane, even more so then i already am, if i functioned without recollection.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I don't black out but I am afraid that I might end up killin someone. I got into a fight once, a while back, & the thought of smashing her face into the cement came into my head. If nobody stopped us I probably would have done it. That really scared me & ever since then, I just avoid confrontation also. But damn it's hard. I don't think you're a wuss at all. I think that makes you the stronger person. Keep up the good work!
deleted_user
deleted_user
i have reallyyy violent outbursts where its not that im like blacked out but more like im seeing things from a third point of view almost like an out of body experience. ive been having it since i was 7 thats the first one i can remember when i flipped a table and started throwing things at my brother and mom when they were arguing cuz i always had just cried and nothing was working and i just lost it. and since then i black out veryy often.
recently the main cause of my violent outbursts are because of my dogs. i dunno maybe its cause im pregnant? but last week i got so mad out of no where and i ended up throwing scissors at the dog and then screamed in its face and punched a glass jar and broke through it.
i can be in a perfectly okay mood and then its just one thing that sets me off and i cant control it.
i cry after my outbursts because i feel so out of control.
i also avoid confrontation with people because i really do not honestly know if i would stop hurting someone unless there was someone else there to stop me. ive never been in a fight with someone else where there wasnt a person to stop me.