being fired (twice!)
financial hardship (see above)

In the last month a lone, an alter of mine (I have DID) sabotaged a job so I lost it, my son lost his medicaid and I had to fight with the medicaid office to get it back while my husband injured himself on the job a week and a half ago and can do NOTHING to help himself right now. I am doing everything but peeing for him!LOL!!

When I was on the phone with medicaid and his worker there was out and the supervisor would only take voice mail then assigned a different worker to handle his case who said I had to have a recent pay stub of his which meant i had to drive to his house to find one.....I thought how nice it would be to have some vodka to go with the lemonade my husband was guzzling and then laughed at myself for even having the thought!

This was in one afternoon last week (above paragraph).

I dont drink but watching my husband die in December and the suffering he went through I won't even allow alcohol in my home now. I also grew up with an alcoholic mother. That keeps me from ever wanting to touch the stuff

I forgot to mention he was only 57 and I became a widow at 48

RM, I am struggling right now. I have been slipping and sliding backward for the past month. I am just trying to get a grip and shift my momentum.

I haven't even had to overcome anything yet. Just daily crap and various moments of insanity. No good reasons to drink. I am just forgetting that I can't.

Thanks all.

I'm sorry for your loss cogo.

I wish my alcoholic father was enough to keep me from picking up in the first place, but I guess this is my path. Good for you to remain strong. xo

As long as I stay in a fit spiritual condition I most probably won't drink over anything which happens. I did have some low spots during my sobriety where I felt I was getting closer to the edge of drinking. Usually when I had to grow up but preferred to go back into victim mode and selfpity. Progress, not perfection.

HTL....well done for sharing when you say you are struggling. Where are you with the steps?

I am told that our HP only gives us what we can handle in any one day and my HP still has me growing and getting used to sobriety.

I like what TG said before and I am a believer in that too about staying spiritually well.

Hey, today we will all get to bed without a drink (I am off now) so....you are a survivor every day HTL...you have a life threatening disease and you have found a solution that works (just keep being willing, honest and open).

You go gal :)

i found that i'm my own wort enemy ,i magnify every little problem into a major deal ,my brain keeps looking for excuses to get wasted ,i'm on day 9 ,i know what your going through ,try not to give in. when i start snapping i come here and read the posts ,sometimes i just stare at the start page ,it also helps me to vent in my journal , you can do it ,believe me i know how hard it is ,just keep trying , good luck

I have severe emphysema - since I'm going to die anyway, why not drink? I'll die from it before the booze.
Why not?
Step 2: "Come to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity".
I'm not insane today.
Why would I drink?
That would be insane...
Hugs,
Dennis

I would have to say I survive my wife on a daily basis.
Through AA I finally built me a 1000 piece sears craftsman tool box equipped for any type menopausal mood swing.

Uhm - good question - lets see

i guess if BAD things were to make one want to drink - here are a few - but for me it's just the opposite - as much as drinking brought me down - when and if I consider drinking it's more in a celebratory manner

1. a horrible marriage - which included prison time for him in additional to jail time and parole - prior to that a major injury - never being employed - still active in his disease, sociopath, driving me to the point of almost complete insanity prior to divorce

2. Father's death, 5 weeks later 2 major c-seetion with my son, 8 weeks later grandmother's death

3. Financial destruction - exh helped wipe out an inheritance

4. Discovering my son is ASD/OCD and having to take this task - basically single handed

5. Having to work from home (inability to recover financially) due to autism

6. lots of counseling for co-dependency, drug and alcohol addiction and spiritual counseling, anger management counseling (SLAPS OF REALITY MAKES YA WANT TO DRINK)

======== so the good things that would make me want to celebrate are:

1. Divorcing and sanity recovery from that
2. My amazing daughter - her accomplishments at a young age
3. My manimal's amazing complishments in a little over 2 years
4. Maintaining employment in this economy
5. I always feel HAPPY - and at at PEACE - and sometimes I just feel like i want to celebrate that

Peace!

Me.

8 months into sobriety I had to preach my Father in laws funeral. Hydraulic jack collapsed and killed him instantly while he was working on his old truck. I was reminded what I had said in treatment somewhere, "That I had no reservations to drink." Although it was a tragedy, it was a pivotal point in my recovery. Excellent post HTL!!

lessee....laid off after 21 years from a career i loved...financial devastation due to that job loss....my former sponsor's death...my sister's ongoing cancer battle...signed over permanent guardianship to my sister of my only child....my mother's cancer surgery...a year long custody battle to protect my daughter from her father (my abuser and convicted sexual predator)....the deaths of many, many friends including one today.

life is hard. no doubt about that but i no longer have to go it alone as i've a family (aa) of unconditional love and support who walk with me through every trial, every tribulation each and every single day.

I really don't need much of an excuse for drinking.None of us do . Thats what we do.If I can remember what it was like it scares me to death. Litterally. As a result of my drinking I turned diabetic. Which in turn led to a heart attack. Which then led to a heart transplant. God has saved my ass so many times he must have a reason for me. Maybe its working with newcomersmaybe its working with my sponsees. I don't know . What I do know is that I haven't had a drink in nearly 26 years. My life has been blessed with many miracles. It has also met with many a tradgety. I just remember what it was like and how its like today. I'll take today over a thousand yesterdays. Remember new guys ,you just didn't get here because you had nothing better to do ,you got here because God guided you here for a reason. And he ain't talking.