Alcoholism Support Group
Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.
Good morning lads! It is I, Pink Arzora, here to send gracious hellos from my little perch.
How is you?
Is you goods?
I am creeping in on 4 weeks again. My body is giving me issues lately that ruin my productivity in the eve. I am going to bed early, and clenching through more pain than i am comfortable with. I have, they think, arthritis that moves the fuck around and disables different limbs depending on the hour. Thing is, a little alcohol that shit clears.
I feel it may be some gout thing, or palindromic RA, though the medication regime is hard on a liver and takes weeks to notice any relief.
My doctor and nurse failed to mention there is a serious interaction with alcohol, though I mentioned being a recovering alcoholic. I'm glad i investigated for myself, but that does undermine my faith in their judgment. If you're an alcoholic, you're always an alcoholic.
Just sayin.
That's the fucked part.
When are you safe? How many years? Decades? What defines being cured? Where is the finish line?
I am on the cusp of a month.
It feels good. I am grateful that i am sober despite feeling like my foot is being sawed off. Pain pills don't touch it. I still have a couple opiate pain pills, like they gave me 7 and i still have 3, from a year ago. Opiates make my nose itch something fierce, don't do jack for my pain other than dim it faintly.
I took steroids, used creams, tried adding D vitamins and shit. Your health is everything hitting middle age.
I am plotting my pace, to live a long life. I want to know my grandchildren and great grandchildren. I want to live through another winter and see the spring burst forth.
I don't want to sacrifice myself to alcohol. I don't want to be an alcoholic.
But i am.
The naked truth of my body is it has an unhealthy reaction to inebriation. It can only end in tragedy.
This path is dark and lonely. I can break it's spell. I can live my life by my terms and honor my body. I will not poison this vessel. I will make it another day.
Thanks for listening!
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check out that smoke ring. It tasted really good. I smothered it with Maulls BBQ sauce which is Local to St. Louis and one of the best I ever had.....
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I was recently separated from my wife of 33 years and it's complicated. Anyway I rented a room about 15 minutes away and I see my kids about once a week. I see the people who own the house I live in once in a while but other than that I stay in my room where I do my cooking, wash dishes in the shower, read, color, and sleep. I get out at least once a day. I grocery shop and I attend 2 meetings...
Well done on a near month. I’m sure everyone is different with that ‘safe’ place. Personally I declared myself safe after a year. That’s because I really like my sober life. Will NOT give that up. I’m super serial here. I mean if NASA told us that a comet was coming in for the kill next week I would be watching it with a clear mind.
I hear you about the pain. I have some nerve damage and alcohol took that away. That’s why I had to quit. At least that was the prime motivation. I knew I’d completely wreck my life with that pain management plan.
Since I quit I have been taking very good care of myself. My body thanks me. Yoga and exercise really help keep the pain in check.
Try boiling some fresh chopped ginger and mint for an evening tea. It seems to help.
I would say that getting better was more of a focus for me then thoughts of drinking or using drugs, because I had hit my low and I really had no place to go except up!
Yes I went through some bodily aches and pains on that road to recovery but only in the early stages. The mental part was the worse for me....Horrible feelings of loss and isolation which no pill could ever cure. My AA friends kept telling me that everything I was feeling, both physical and emotional was just temporary. They kept telling me to give it a year and I would feel like a new man because it takes the brain a long time to rewire itself. I would say that it only took about 8 months before I began to feel like a new man.
One month is excellent and congrations but try to keep in mind that you are still in a fragile state where your sobriety could go either way so just be aware of the tricks that little addiction demon is playing on you to try to get you to feed it the drug it needs to stay alive and keep wreaking havoc on your mind and body.. Under any circumstances, don't give in to the temptation and as time goes by, it will keep getting easier and easier to resist as the cravings get weaker in strength and frequency.
You're doing great! Keep up the good work! We are all very proud of you!
God Bless
Thing for me was to accept that I am an alcoholic. That was tough because I’m not the type to surrender, I would go down with the ship before surrender, that was one of the factors that created my alcoholism. Stubbornness.
I needed to identify the traits that made me not like myself and NEED to booze so hard. I was a thief, liar, and cheat. I was only concerned with mE.
F booze its rat poison in my eyes
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Though i hit a wall where my body just quit round dinner, it felt beautiful to have that meal and know how happy it made these creatures i love.
If i started drinking, i would be hiding in the back yard or garage, then buy more, then omg do i feel like shit next day but WAIT..MORE DAYS OF SHIT AHEAD!!
My hangovers are like a week now, just stuffing things in my face hoping the right magical morsel will make me feel not gut punched. Ugh. Don't know why that would be a temptation.
Then I became addicted to coffee, sugar, bread, butter, online shopping, the lightbulb moment came the other day and I realised I was just swapping one addiction for others.
I have now cut out coffee, sugar, the bread and butter and am feeling amazing. (and its only been a week)
Like Jase wrote in another post, if we can give up one, we can give up the other, it is about us acknowledging what we are doing and making the necessary changes.
I was feeling crappy, bloated and starting to feel bad about myself, and before I went down that dark, slippery slope - I put the brakes on and said 'no more".
You have picked yourself up and now have a month, yay, you got this, you just gotta replace the shitty stuff with the good stuff.
And on another note, I just finished the tv series "Ozark" - was f.....g fantastic, check it out if you haven't allready !!!