I can't tell you about inpatient treatment but I went through outpatient treatment which was 4 hours a day, for 3 weeks. It was a very rewarding experience for me! When I went through intake, they documented all the problems I was aware of so the counselors would know how to treat me or which treatment options would work best on me.

The lady that did my intake became my counselor and she knew exactly how to help me. I was treated for all the things that predisposed me to addiction such as ptsd and depression. I was scared to death that first day and I think it's natural that we all have this fear of the unknown, but once I got settled into the program, it turned out extremely well and was an experience I will never forget.

You need to get your doctor to refer you or you can get into one immediately through the ER if you are in withdrawals.

I really think you should bit the bullet and get help because you are worth it, although you may not know it now, you DO have a purpose in life!

There are lots of people willing to help so don't be afraid to ask!

God Bless!

Talking to a doctor to be medically evaluated as to the best way (inpatient or outpatient) to detox is very important. If you decide on inpatient detox, perhaps, starting with an initial detox of 3 to 5 days to see how you adjust to an inpatient setting and taking it from there would be best. I would encourage you to consider a supervised detox especially since your alcohol use sounds like it is causing severe agitation and sleep problems. Not being able to sleep (being passed out is not sleep) indicates a rather strong physical dependency and an unsupervised detox is not something I would recommend.

@bobinmaine I messaged my dr. and she referred me to a triage counselor who will access my needs. She couldn't get me in until Tuesday. I decided about a week ago that I have to get help or I am on my way to the grave. I honestly have not cared to live anymore. But since Ive decided to get help. All of my issues are coming back that I have had buried for a long time. I don't know if I can get thru them. I have had a traumatizing life and I shut down all of my feelings a long time ago to survive. Thank you so much for the advice. I have never thought I am worth living. I have always felt in the way and not wanted. I have never taken or asked for help . It is very overwhelming and I feel like my walls are crumbling and I am falling out of control. Thanks for listening. I'm afraid I have opened the flood gates. I know I'm rambling but my thoughts and emotions are overwhelmed.

chaplet...just realize that inpatient will not cure you...it is typically a medical detox and I have done this over 13 times....it is necessary if your body is addicted to alcohol.

Its after that you will have to maintain your sanity....with AA or counselors..or outpatient...or ALL of them....but it is an ongoing outside job on your behalf.....no its not easy...but I can tell you...its better than being on the couch in oblivion existing vs. living.

When you FEEL....you live.....If you participate in groups such as AA or outpatient...you will realize that although your life is traumatic...or was....there are others that have suffered much worse.

I thought my life was pretty bad...and then..I participated in such groups and I always left kinda grateful for my shitty life.

Counseling helps with coping skills...and just venting in general.
Good luck to you....continue on your path to recovery because like you said the only place this path is taking you is to the grave.

I started my journey just like you by coming to this site first. Then I found a room and began to live again that was a couple years ago. C'mon

1is2many

If you feel you cannot wait then another option is the ER. They should take you in immediately, especially it you tell them you are either in withdrawals and/or having suicidal thoughts. That was how I got in for my drinking. The doctor actually said I was too drunk to be admitted so he gave me something to dilute the alcohol and a few hours later, I was admitted.

It was the best thing I ever did because I got answers to my questions, I got help for my problems, I had all these weights lifted off my shoulders and I made some lifelong friends in the process!

Have an open mind and take action today because it will save your life!

In the meantime, we will keep you in our thoughts and prayers....please keep us posted.

God Bless!

Thank you all for your prayers! I am going to start praying more for everyone. I am drinking now and my worries are gone for now and I can feel , but everything else in my life is forgotten

What is living? I honestly don't think I know or remember. Don't take me seriously because I am drunk now and won't remember anything tomorrow.

I really don't care if I die when I'm drunk. I could have died and not cared when I drink. I am numb.

Please take care of yourself and let others help you in real life by calling and getting evaluated for the best way for you to detox. Cyber support is fine and all, but inadequate for some things.

I'm not doing well today. I am feeling very shaky and I am having palpitations.I think its anxiety. The past week or so my mind wont quit. I feel very self-destructive right now. I am scared of what is going to happen to my life.

chelepet...eat something....distract yourself.....
I don't know if you are drinking? Are you at work?

Do you have access to a therapist that you can call and get an emergency appointment for today?

Sometimes when you talk stuff out....you feel better.

A suggestion - while coming here is a good first step, I think you need something more immediate.

Call 1 (800) 273-8255
It's the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline

They can help you to get past your feeling of self-destruction, and realize you are a human being, deserving of LOVE and HOPE.
Everyone is - and you are no exception. You've just forgotten what it feels like.

Also, they can help you overcome your feelings of fear.

We are here for you, but I feel you also might need to talk.

I remember when I was just a kid, my mother said the same things you just said and when she died of alcoholic liver sirosis, I was devastated! It ruined my life until I got help 30 years later as a result of my own addiction!


Please, if you care anything for your own family, get some help...otherwise, you will be dragging them down along with you!

Good Luck!

Alcohol withdrawal:

Mental State

Alcohol withdrawal can alter a person's mental state, causing confusion or difficulty thinking clearly, according to the National Institutes of Health. Other symptoms include depression, anxiety, difficulty sleeping, fatigue, irritability and excitability. In some cases, people may appear jittery, jumpy, nervous or agitated. Some people even become aggressive while going through withdrawal. These symptoms can be heightened or become more acute when DT develops.

Heart Rate

Alcohol withdrawal can cause an acceleration in the heart rate, causing heart palpitations or the feeling as though the heart is racing, according to the National Institutes of Health.


http://www.livestrong.com/article/125827-alcohol-withdrawal-symptoms-before-dts/

Again please seek medical attention.