I messaged my dr. she told me to make an appt. I can't get in with her until Thursday. Apparently she's not to worried. I told her my blood pressure is in the 160's with both of the med's I'm on and I'm having palpitations and racing heart, which she already knows about because I was in there for it 2 months ago. I told her about my drinking. Will drs. take me seriously or will they think It's not that big of a deal. I am starting to second guess myself because I am feeling better today. I guess I just need some reassurance that people won't think Im crazy. I hate attention. I have always ran away from the spotlight and It makes me very nervous to have people analyzing me. Do you think I'm crazy by my posts? I know that the alcohol has changed my brain, but will I ever get my normal way of thinking back? Whatever normal is. Thanks for listening. Just getting more scared of changes. I am not one to changevery easily

I am listening and I am going to get help this week. Thank you all. I have never talked to anyone before as you can probably guess by my ramblings. I am still drinking at night and I think I am just having withdrawals during the day. I don't view myself as a weak person, but I sure am sounding like it lately. I love my family and have always been there for my daughter, but I can tell I am taking a toll on her and my husband and family. I have always swore I would never do that to anyone in my life. I would die before I did.But here I am. I have to change or I can't live with myself. I already hate muself

If you are crazy than so am I as my posts can get rather toasty and pretty far out there sometimes. I don't do well with feelings either and tend to live from the neck up which not drinking has allowed me to do somewhat as a defense mechanism. I really respect people that are able to share their feelings more openly like you than I do. That's not being crazy it's human. I think you are on your way by reaching out to your doctor and on this support site. If we are honest about the amount we drink we are usually taken serious by doctors. Then it is up to us to take the doctor seriously and follow their directions or consider all the options they present and choose the one that fits, especially as to detoxing is concerned. I make mistakes all the time but drinking is not the way to avoid dealing with them. Whatever normal is for me is based on not drinking. All my best on your journey on finding what normal is for you and the progress you will make in finding it by not drinking.

I went to 2 weeks rehab.....Ok...but i did not changed much..than spend 17 months in Teen Challenge...That was amazing...quite hard in the start but it made me stronger.....drinking makes my anxiety hundreds times worse also depression gets insane...alcohol makes me crazy....try to look in to Teen Challenge...it is worth it....but it is very long.Good luck....:-)

Hi chelepet, you don't have to talk about your problems to fellow in-patients but your admitting doctor, most likely a psychiatrist will need all the information you can give him in order to determine how to help you best.

There are usually group therapy with people just like you which is normally led by a therapist. Again, you don't have to speak to anyone but I think you'd be comfortable enough to share with others just like you in a relatively short amount of time.

I've been out of the biz for a while but I think they probably still are alike. Alcohol detox can be fatal so anywhere you can get to that offers medical supervision would be a good idea. Good luck.

You know you need treatment because just like the rest of us, we knew we couldn't quit without help. You are having a high degree of anxiety because you fear the unknown and that is very common.

We all felt the same way until the end of that first day when we realize how brave we were to overcome that first hurdle. Then you will feel a sense of belonging. You will be among people who are there for the same reason you are, Chances are, your counselors are former alcoholics in recovery just like you!

Believe me, You will wish you made the decision to get help a long time ago! The only thing stopping you is your alcoholic mind with all it's fears and anxieties.

No one will judge you and no one will make you do anything you don't want to do!

Good luck and God Bless!

Hi chelepet, Keep us posted. Don't be a stranger OK...

To hell with AA.

For me, sitting with a group of self centered religious individuals espousing their sobriety over 30 odd years is of no help whatsoever because GOD did it.

Every time I went to an AA meeting, their they were, happy with their sobriety and looking down on newcomers.

So, I ended up going to the emergency room last Sunday because my blood pressure was over 210/119. They admitted me and started meds righg away.. it took a few days to get my blood pressure down. They hzae me on a lot. I went thru the tremors and sweating . I am still here and am getting really depressed and agitated. I probably will be released soon. I dont know what to do without drinking. I have just been sitting in the room zoning. I am on alot if meds. What happens when they quit those? I feel so alone. I dont want to go home because I know I will drink again. I cant live with this debilitating depression. This is the longest Ive gond withougt drinking. Sorry.

How are you doing this morning? I am concerned about you.

Your comment about depression and that you will drink when you leave make it sound like you need additional inpatient help.

Can you go straight into a 30 day facility?

I think that they are looking for somewhere for me to go. Ive been in the cardiatic unit since Sunday and they are saying they might hsve a bed for me in rehab on Monday.

Ive been sober for almost a week, but of course they have me on tons of medicine. At least Im sleeping.

Sleep is good as your body and mind need it to repair itself...Good luck and best wishes on your new adventure in life without booze...