Alcoholism Support Group

Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.

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jaya9087ag 03/19/2014

This is a complete burden now, i used to love drinking now its a struggle. I hate the taste, hate the smell and hate the way it makes me act. I hate the way the shop keeper looks at me when i go into the shop 3-4 times a day, i hate the way my inside feel, i hate everything about this living hell. But i still find comfort in a drink. I try to tell my family this but they don't understand but i can't blame them, to be honest i don't understand it myself. I really understand why my old therapist told me that it's insanity really. The way an alcoholic thinks and justifies everything is so contradictory, i can't wait to get back into rehab so i can get things in place to support my recovery because i dismissed all of this when my therapist told me last time around. I know i can't do it alone now.

ExJerseyGirl2 03/19/2014

Sounds like you are ready to get to work on climbing out of your drinking hell. When do you return to rehab?

jaya9087ag 03/19/2014

iv got an appointment on the 8th of April with a group called adsis, i hoping they will provide funding for a rehab out of the area that i live in now. I want i fresh start im 100% ready now and under no illusions :)

Zachary18 03/19/2014

Try your best to keep it together for the next 3 weeks or so, until you get to a safer place. Please take care of yourself. We are all here to help get through this difficult waiting period. The great thing is people are here morning noon and night. With member various time zones when its 3 in the morning where you are it's 8pm somewhere else.

Deogee 03/19/2014

James, I wish you the best of luck and I am so happy to hear you are going to rehab. And please, like Zachary said, try to keep it together until then.

When I knew I was going to a rehab and/or detox, that's when I really let loose. I figured I might as well do it up right before I went. Not a good idea.

jaya9087ag 03/19/2014

Thanks zac and deogee you're comments are really supportive. i just can't wait to get to the rehab out of the area so that i can just get myself together because around here everyone knows me and mostly the wrong kind of people. I just want to wake up fresh in the morning, in a good mood, looking forward to the day instead of feeling down n wondering how i'm going to get a drink. i'm in a cold dark place now, i want to feel contentment again...

meblonde 03/19/2014

Jay I started feeling that way too, sort of almost sick when I had my first drink, but had another one any way. When I finally stopped, I was so glad I no longer had that struggle of should I drink or not. The bondage was lifted and I was at peace.

jaya9087ag 03/19/2014

Hi meblonde, i really hope i can find peace one day because iv only found it in situations where it's not possible for me to drink. i really hope i can get the strength like you have.JAY

deleted_user 03/20/2014

There's always AA meetings until your rehab happens...

I'm sorry it's getting worse for you and the consequences greater, I found that too. Didn't stop me drinking though, nothing would, until I became desperate for a life where alcohol did not feature in any picture for me. I was done, completely done with the fight.

I recovered and so can you. About the family - they try to understand but they have a normal reaction to alcohol so their truth is not the same as ours. So there's the physical and mental aspect for alcoholics like me that they do not experience. The most important thing to family, I found, was that I had stopped the madness and they could get their peace of mind back. That takes time.

lostnursetoo 03/20/2014

I am so glad to hear that you are going to be getting real help in a safe environment! You can do this Jay! Until then, do the best you can to stay safe! We are thinking about you and cheering you on!!!

AnnaB12 03/20/2014

I agree with the other comments, please keep yourself safe until you get to rehab! And good luck to you. The fact that you can say "I know I can't do this alone" I see as a good sign- you know what you need to do to get better. Please keep us posted on your recovery :)

paulokes 03/20/2014

Jay sick and tired of being sick and tired...I always related to that phrase. All the kings horses and all the kings men...well they could glue him back together but sooner or later old Humpty had to realise he couldn't succesfully jump off the wall :) If your made of eggs sooner or later you're going to get scrambled :)

Safe journey my friend

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Zachary18 03/20/2014

Jay,

There are also communities of faith that can help too. If AA and the community of faith idea are not acceptable to you. Then any safe group that accepts you as you are is fine.

deleted_user 03/21/2014

Rehab....... I love rehab. it set me free. Im such a fan of rehab. So hope you go Zach.

deleted_user 03/21/2014

oops not Zach I got it on the brain sorry Jaya. Honestly rehab is awesome if you give it a red hot go like I did. I stayed in rehab for 3 months and that and campral set me free sure I fell off he wagon a couple of times but I only allowed it once and hopped straight back on the horse.
Its hard but hell is it worth it. Im so excited for you. I really hope you go

jaya9087ag 03/23/2014

Thanks everyone for the support iv still not had a drink but iv started coming off some of my prescription meds so it's making me feel a bit down. But i'm detirmined this time. I'm just focusing on this up and coming rehab. i'll keep you all posted,Jay

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