Thanks(Lifeandlove) I'm glad that rehab worked for you, I'm going to put my all in to it. I just need a place like that to get my head back together.Thanks for youre support i'll keep you posted on how i get on.By the way, what is campral? Jay

You have helped me to stay sober today. I hope you find good over times my friend. Just know you got a lot of ppl counting on you. Keep us posted!

Sober not over. Dam it spellck...

Hi Jay,

I hope you're coming off some of your meds has been at the suggestion of your doctor and you're following your docs instructions. I know I played around with my meds at times in the past and the outcomes were not good. It's important to let your doc know your state of mind as you come off meds. I am posting this with the best of intentions as I often took matters into my own hands in regards to meds.

Hi Paul, im definitely sick and tired of being sick and tired its time for change. im glad that i can help someone on here to stay sober like the saying ''you have got to give what you've got away to keep it'' so i know when i'm helping others i'm reminding myself of where iv come from and also helping that person at the same time. Hi Zach, yh i'm going steady on the reduction of my meds i'm doing it really slow so the withdrawal is to a minimal. i agree meds really do mess the mind up i know ill stay on my anti depressant but i want off the ones that i'm only taking to get high off :)

Glad ur going to rehab....you need to educate urself as much as u can on this issue. Have u read the Big Book of A.A.? There are statements in it from a Dr.

best of luck.

Hi jay,

Your doing great. Keep it up. And you'll get to the place you want to go - rehab and beyond. We can all attest to that fact, but we have to stay sober in the here and now to have the best shot of dealing with life by looking in the eye.

hi akacountry, where can i get one of these A.A books from? i enjoy reading so i think I'd benefit from having one of those. Hi Zach i honestly feel 100% ready for this now and I'm going to keep myself sober before i go to rehab so that i go in there with a clear mind. Jay

Most AA groups have the big book available. It has a suggested price, but if you can't afford it don't worry pay when you can. It also may be in your local library.

Failing that this link takes you to AA world services http://www.aa.org/catalog.cfm?category=2

P.S. You can also view the big book online at http://www.aa.org/bbonline/

Thanks Zach I'll look into that. I'm hungry for all the knowledge i can get because at the end of the day knowledge is power :)

Hey Im glad you had just about enough of the drinking...Im 36 and have felt that way for years and years. It all starts out fun and then life goes to shit. I went to rehab a great one in Ont. Canada 3 years ago. See, I'm in the military so its always around me and its a way of life for the most part. I was exactly like you and feel everything you are going through. I dismissed what I learnt in rehab but I felt on top of the world when I came out and I was 100% convinced I would never drink again. Until I stopped going to AA and let booze around me again, I started to slip. Now Im back into going to a support group and for the first time in my life and I started drinking when I was 12 I went out to the bar and was sober and had so much fun and I couldn't believe that I had put my demon to rest. there is more out there then getting shit faced and thinking your having a good time. I used to hate waking up the next day because how I felt and I hated some of the things I may of did or said. But I always felt comfort in that drink. So what im trying to say is that it gets better and you got some tuff times ahead but you CAN do it and It can be done. Im on that sober path in life and I feel so good and I have my life back again. I know now that there is much more out there. Every day sober is a great day and I will be thinking about you and stay strong you got this. We all know its not easy and we do understand how much power that drink can have over us but its getting less and less each day and one day we will be writing about how it doesn't effect us anymore. I thought I could do it alone but I know now that its takes a lot of support and Im here if you ever need to talk. take care and lets us all know how rehab went

Hi bqms, thanks for you're post. I'm glad to hear that you're on top of the drink problem now. i understand that it must of been extra difficult for you being in the military. My best friend was in the army and i saw for myself how hard they hit the drink. it's also good to hear that you can now go out and have fun without drink. I'm so used to socializing with drink in my system so it's definitely going to be a challenge to function in that setting with out it but once my head is more clear and i'm feeling more confident i'm sure i can handle it. When i go to rehab i know i'll make some good friends and they can put me in contact with other people who are in recovery then i can start AA meetings aswell. I'll keep you posted on how i get on. thanks for you're advice and support. Jay

I understand hating drinking but keep doing it. I have justt 10 days sober and hate drinking but hate the feeliings it blocks out even more so that's why I drink. also don't know how to tell my friends I won't be drinking with them anymore.
Still feelin much better 10 days clean!

Hi two roads, I understand where your coming from with blocking out feelings, it is a good feeling when the drink kicks in because all anxiety goes all worry and depression but i found that my behavior in drink just re in-forced all them negative things, so it just pushed people away and just became more depressed, it was like a vicious cycle. Yh that's a tough one about telling your friends, iv really struggled with that as I'm only 24 and alot of my old friends are out drinking alot, but if the consequences get too much then i think it's better to let them down. but it is really hard when all the fun is based around drinking, i suppose it about exploring other things to do that don't revolve around drinking