they say alchohol is but a symptom. There are meeings online too. Prayer helps if you pray. Phone lines prayer lines to get you started if you are inclined. I went to meetings and got support . Also as is usually the case counseling of some sort helps too if you have no issue with that, But any burden is cut in half by sharing it, hope you can reach out ,, hard but must not go it alone

It sounds as if you might be an alcoholic but are not sure about ;it; yet.

Try some controlled drinking and see if you are still confused.

I didn't know how to live a happy life without drugs or alcohol. When I reached my "low" , when my health and my life were crumbling before my eyes and I knew I would die if I didn't do something. I didn't care at that point if my life would be boring, I just wanted to live!

I went through a 3 week outpatient program. If you live in the USA, every hospital has one. Just contact your local alcohol and substance abuse center, if you're interested.

The evening hours were convenient for me because I could work at my daytime job. While in the IOP I learned how to live a happy life without alcohol. I learned coping skills. I learned about triggers and how to deal with them. I followed up with AA meetings for continuing support.

That was 8 years ago. Today, I continue to attend occasional meetings although not nearly as many as in the beginning when my sobriety was still in a fragile state. I continue to live my life by the 12 steps and I have never been happier. I wish the same for you!

God Bless

I have 30 years in AA. I would suggest asap get yourself to a AA meeting. It for me is the fellowship of other alcoholics that works for me. They know me, they know what it takes and they get me even though they may not be like me at all, they know me. To be able to function is not life. You are on your way, you posted here, you got through some link, and I hope you follow all the advice above, go asap to a meeting. Get on the path of recovery, it's the only way out of this dilemma. Good luck!

Hi Bagwmn1! How are you doing? Are there any positive steps done for your recovery? It's sad that one of the triggers as to why you drink is because of boredom. But it's good that you acknowledge that you have a problem with drinking. I know it's tough to live in an alcoholic home. I do live in one, always feeling the need to escape. But seriously, change will begin in you, not in anybody else. You are the one who will be making the calls, not the alcohol, not your family. If you haven't figured out what to do next, there are so many 24/7 like BLVD Treatment Center--844.767.9476 which you can call for an assessment. I am hoping all the best for you. Sending warm hugs!