neither of those things.....start your own meeting and make it a recovery meeting that has values of the three legacies of AA.....Service Recovery and Fellowship.....it sounds like some of those meetings are not healthy and maybe you moved to small town rather than larger metro area.....

I can safely say that thinking of either drinking or blowing your brains out means you need to reach out to people where you left like old sponsor and do some heart to heart talking and also the meetings these days are available on zoom in countries and states and cities from around our world....so start with some zoom meetings....I can give you a couple good three legacy groups that have zoom and in person hybrid meetings and they also have people from around the country in one on Tuesday evening.....let me know in PM if have interest....bill hugs

Just remember sticks and stones, bro and welcome to the group Danny!

I always try to remember that the people at those meetings have sick minds, just like I do, so if someone says something to me that rubs me the wrong way, I just smle at them and I never let it bother me. Nothing can bother you unless you give it the power to do so.

One day, while I was still married but still living with my stbx, I was feeling really bummed out and felt I had to go to a meeting. I didn't know why but I felt I really had to be there. The first thing I do when I walk through the door is buy a raffle ticket only I didn't have any money on this one day. I sat down and the stranger sitting next to me, handed me one of his raffle tickets, so I thanked him.

At the end of the meeting, they drew the raffle and to my amazement, drew my number! I won a little book called "Acceptance" by Vincent P Collins. Every line in this book is laid in like a brick and every bit of it had meaning to me and I am sure that that was the reason I had to be at that meeting!...From that moment on, I looked at my life totally differently and with gratitude for my Higher Power having put that book in my hands!

If you pm your address to me I will send you a copy for free. If not, it's ok, I totally understand. You can also buy them on amazon for a couple dollars. That goes for anyone else reading this. I buy them from the publisher and pass them out to all my friends who want to read these powerful words on the inside.

Good luck on your road to recovery. May you find peace and happiness along the way.

God Bless

Hi Danny, please don’t do either of those things. I suggest going for a walk and if that’s difficult then find a little quiet space in nature and sit with our beautiful home.
I’m sure it’s hard leaving your old groups and feeling like an outsider.
It’s great that you are still working your recovery and maybe this could be a message that it’s time to branch out and meet new people outside the rooms? We’re all social creatures and being around others is important. I was just certified for basic lifesaving (EMR) so I can volunteer some of my time to help others in need. Along the way I’ve meet some really good healthy people. We meet a few times a month for training and chats and I really enjoy it and didn’t expect this at all when I signed up.
I’m a fairly shy person but I’ve been feeling welcomed and appreciated. I bet you will have a similar experience if you put yourself out there to lend a hand.
Welcome to our little group, stay in touch

Neither of those options.................................Listen to these guys, they know what they are talking about & reach out.
I got sober during Covid, when they started to have meetings with Covid restrictions, my first meeting, I went to sit down on the only available chair and 2 men sitting next to it told me I couldn't sit there.
(they didn't know that an old timer out the front, had given me his chair so I could attend the meeting)
I felt so unwanted, rejected and was devastated.
I was crying a river of tears under my mask, halfway I left, as I was so upset. Out the front, I was crying and 3 others standing there listened to me, handed me tissue after tissue and talked to me.
I made myself go back a few times more, but now prefer online meetings.
We cannot let others dictate how we feel, Bob is right, we have to take our power back & believe in ourselves, take care & so glad you posted !

It's unfortunate but you could try to stick with it and don't let them get in the way of what you want out of the meetings...use it as an opportunity to overcome adversity??

Although, I would probably just look for better meetings via zoom ... there are so many to choose from. Best of luck to you and I hope you decide against the options you mentioned.

Don't give up.

Thanks to all of you for your stories and insight. I am doing a bit better I just go to a different meeting one hour drive for me.

Neither of those options would be a wise decision. It's only a temporary setback. There are still many online meetings via Zoom. Google your Intergroup in your area and they should have a list of Zoom meetings. I live in NJ and many of our meetings have opened back up for in-person. But I still also attend many Zoom meetings all over the place. Look up the 12 Coconuts Group in Hawaii. It starts at 1PM (eastern time). It takes place every single day and they average 110 people on the Zoom meeting every day. People all over the world attend that meeting and they are a very caring bunch. God Bless

Sometimes it’s the dry alcoholic inside me that acts like an Ashat , I’m basically selfish and self centered. So I talk less and listen more.

Sounds like a resentment against aa or sober ppl or ?

Even without booze we can be a holes. That’s some of the reason why booze was our go to. We got at ease with being an a hole

Good share Danny, and yes, just find another meeting. I had to go to several before I found one that I liked. Wishing you the best!

THanks to everyone who has shared and helped me. I am doing better today. I went to the meeting anyways and shared whether others liked it or not. I also go to meetings an hour away if need be. You all have helped me a lot.

If that's all it takes to blow your life and sobriety, maybe( and I'm assuming this is what those people are trying to convey to you ) you need to shut your mouth at meetings and listen. sounds like you want stardom more than the teachings. good luck.

Glad to hear you’re doing better Danny. The early stages of recovery can be fragile and we need to remain committed in spite of what’s been said in a meeting or elsewhere. Yes, drive an hour to another meeting if necessary. Congrats and continued success!